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add it, its new<3
please add me
if you read this
because its a pain
in my butt to add
everyone by typing
it in myself, so if you
add me first its easier
for me, thanks friends!

there is never anything to say in here

i'm think i might delete this, i mean i don't
update it. i don't really ever have anything 
interesting to say, and i dont really use this
journal as much as i  thought i would. oh well

Attention, Attention
       may I have all your eyes and
       ears to the front of the room
      if only, if only  for one second
                         &
    will you hear what I have to say?

i haven't been feelings to well lately.
everything thats going on with my
family, friends, and boyfriend are
building up and it is really hard to
deal with ( Read more... )

the sun still
shines in the
summertime

<3

remember that & we'll be fine

i feel like such a little girl
   getting angry about things that wouldnt matter to anyone else
     but me. and not only that but getting jealous at everything 
       ever but anyone, any gender, who takes him away from 
        me for any period of time. i am so incredibly jealous
      about absolutely nothing that it seems like something
         ( Read more... )

today is three months with him ( Read more... )

i fell off a roof.
i meant to jump
far enough over to
land onto the bush.
but..
thats not what happened.
so there was an little
raise on the edge
of the roof
i didnt see it..
so i just jumped and
well i slipped, and
well i fell and i fell
hard. i landed on
my side or back
and my head.

some  cuts  and  scrapes.  mostly
under my chin, on my cheek and
a  big  one ( Read more... )

after so long of thinking along a certain path,  it becomes nearly
impossible to stray from that path, to think any differently.

after so long of feeling a certain way, every day, every
night, while conscious and while dreaming, you become
unable to conceive of feeling any other way.

after seeing one color for so long, you
learn to forget that any ( Read more... )

i am getting  that sick taste
  in   my    mouth   from   the
  medicine i can't keep down.

<3

i really love my friends

( Read more... )