I've been on T for just over three months now ( Read more... )

Friday Nov. 21st. Lucy gave birth to a 7lbs. 13oz. 20in. baby girl. I found out today at 3:44pm. I spoke to her a little over an our ago and heard her cry for the first time. I think that I am still in shock ( Read more... )

I need a long road trip. It's so hard when that old wonderlust strikes. I just want to up and leave for a week or so. See something new. Different people, places, ect. That's what I loved about backpacking in Europe. If I wanted a different city, or country for that matter, everyday. Sometimes I just feel like I am stuffed in a very small ( Read more... )

Started school today. It went rather well. I'm still a little nervous about it because more people know me than I thought. Hopefully I won't have any problems transitioning during school. I had my second shot, self injected on Tues. 23rd at 10:45am. Did'nt hurt at all. I then drove to Indiana. The effects were a little different this time I ( Read more... )

The T has taken really well to my body. I'm still happy all of the time. My body hair is starting to grow and it feels like bugs are all over me. I noticed a little more hair on my legs today. My shoulders are thicker and people are really percieveing me differently. Maybe that last part is just my attitude. I have very little fear of ( Read more... )

Not only did I start T, but I started it the day before my birthday. 2 hours after my shot I was so full of energy. That energy has not subsided as of yet. My depression is gone. I have'nt thought about killing myself or anything related to death for that matter. It's wonderful. A** loves it. I just can't get mad. If I get upset a little ( Read more... )

Today was fucked up ( Read more... )

I've decided to go ahead and start "T". I hope by september. I talked to the guys the other night at group and they really cleared stuff up. I've never had someone look me in the eye and tell me that I may not be around in a year. Getting over this fear has helped so much. Since that night I have not dreaded a new day. I am currently ( Read more... )

This gets worse everyday. Ever since I can remember I have wanted to just rip out of my body. Explode into creativity. I feel like I am trapped. I can feel these creative rivers flowing through my body but I have no idea how to let this fluid flow free. I have always wanted to perform something, anything. I just want to release this. It just ( Read more... )

Well, I received my first binder this week. I love it. When I look down they are no longer visible,when I moved I don't feel them. It's great. I never knew how much I truly loathe them. I looked in the mirror the other night at work and saw how I looked. I could'nt beleive what I was looking at. It was an image that so closely resembled the image ( Read more... )