Life is good.
minus my feeling kinda sick/weak
my mood has been good.
im happy w/ the ppl i have in my life.
im not broken =]

saturday was 3 months w/ alex
& his b-day
we went to see the simpsons movie
 then i went home
& decorated my room kinda
& he went out to thai food w/ his friend jose
then came back
& they all got drunky =]
not me
cuz i felt sick =/
but we ( Read more... )

so since the weekend
alot has been happening.
alex & I were fighting alot
like..ALOT
about something that I said
which was out of line
& totally stupid on my part.
& for my stupidity
I basically had to
cut the ties with someone
I used to like.
but its ok
I know who is most important
& whats worth it & whats not.
& im not losing alex
over something so stupid.
*sigh ( Read more... )

sooo\
the weekend was interesting.
to say the least.
fri night
sean & alex came over
to my sis'
to house sit w/ me.
we decided to drink.
sooo i got pretty drunk.
so did they. lol.
we went to jack in the box
and the line took foreverrr lol.
went back to my sis' place.
and partied for a bit.
then crashed.

saturday
sean came over
drank/smoked w/ alex
then we went to ( Read more... )

I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sent you to me without wings)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your ( Read more... )

The past few days
have been pretty draining emotionally.
but its turning out to ahow a new side of me.
I know im a bitch.
& im acting on it more and more
oh well...dont get on my bad side i guess.
& spiteful?
hahaha nice comment "annonymous"
but anyways...
\
Alex & I are doing good.
gettin closer by the day.
I love him soo much.
im so glad to have
him in my life ( Read more... )

I really dont know what to say.
dont think you "won"
but im just...done now
all i can think of are words of hate
& disappointment.
but im sick of wasting me time on you.

soo
this weekend I get to play house
with alex and sean
we're watching my sisters place from fri-sun
i cant wait.
it'll be a break away from drama
hopefully
i love those guys
[for diff reasons]
( Read more... )

its funny how things work out.
one day you seem to have alot of "good" friends
then out of no where
they disapper
& become as close to each other as can be.
even tho you were the one who brught them together
funny huh?
i hope they are happy with the great friendship they have.
its probably better im not surrounded by fake ppl anymore
i now have more true ( Read more... )

The same words repeat in my head
again & again
like a record stuck, skipping.
"your fake"
looking into the dirty mirror
day after day
with words of suposed "love"
written on it
from the people who used to mean so much to me
who have suddenly given up on me.
turned their backs without a simple warning
or even an explanation.
& now i feel
as if the very ground ( Read more... )

so i sit here staring at this blank screen
as my fingers type slower then my mind is thinking.
I have so many thoughts racing through my head
my fingers just cant keep up.
so many memories
all of them fake.
not because of me no.
no matter what anyone thinks,
I have always been real,open,honest
& as caring as a person can be.
Im sorry if you ever felt ( Read more... )

everything was fine again
but nooo that doesnt last long.
some people really need to grow up.

life isnt all about fitting in
im sorry but i really dont care about that
i stick by the people who actually care about me
& right now i can count em on 
pretty much one hand
sometimes thats for the better tho.

I kinda had a feeling it wouldnt last
guess i was right ( Read more... )