Just another day in the life of amy. But ya know something things are different now, because I am so much happier than I used to be. I have a job, I am completely in love, and I have great friends. The fact that I am extremely grounded isn't even really phasing me anymore, it's kinda just part of life right now. It is really retarded though, like ( Read more... )

i don't really know what to talk about, i just kinda felt like i should write about something. so let's see...i spent last night with my friends...god i love them so much. i don't really know what to do about it all though, because i am in love with andrew, but i don't think we are going to end up together. i want to be with him, but i don't know ( Read more... )

i am sick of feeling like a tool, and that's it. i am falling in love with someone i shouldn't be, and trying my hardest to not. i don't want to get hurt again, because i don't really know how he feels about me, and i couldn't tell you if he really freakin cared about me. i mean yeah i know he cares, and we talked about why, but if he cares, then ( Read more... )

so this is how it goes, i hung out with andrew last night...i mean everything was chill. he is hella mad at that kid josh for being a jack ass, but he doesn't know if he wants to be with me or not. i just don't want to play any more games. but i told him i loved him, and that i want to be with him, but i won't keep going back and forth we are ( Read more... )

yeah i know it's still relatively early, and i should not be bitching already about not being able to sleep, but i'm tired and i want to sleep, and dream and wake up tomorrow and today will be nothing but a memory. i can look back on it and it won't be as big of a deal as it was today...because it won't matter anymore. nothing will matter anymore. ( Read more... )

So the past two weeks have been two of the worst weeks since.....god i cannot even tell you how long it has been. but basically they have consisted of grounding, crying, yelling, and depression. but eh shit happens. i know that most everyone i know has some vague idea of what i have been going through, well let me just well....lay it out there for ( Read more... )

i know that i have done so many things in my past, that to an ousider, may not have been the best things to do...but they were necessary for me to do so that i could learn the lessons i needed to learn. and more than anything else, it has been my friends that have helped me through these ups and downs...but it is amazing, because now when i need ( Read more... )

The past week has been the week from hell. It has been an uncontrollable rollercoaster of ups and downs, with no way to get off. I have been grounded because my family is afraid of what I will do, and who I will become. Because apparently I am not who they know me to be, but in truth they haven't known me for years, all they know is who they want ( Read more... )

So i don't know what the heck to do about everything. i mean with andrew....i don't know if he even wants to be with me, or if he is just kinda waiting around for someone better. i don't know why he wants to talk to me on friday. i'm only worried because the only time he says things like that is when he wants to end things...and i have to tell you ( Read more... )

I don't know what's wrong with me lately, but i am second guessing everything. my relationships with friends, family, andrew...it just doesn't make any sense. does he even want to be with me? what are we honestly? i hate that he doesn't know how to tell me anything...like tonight he told me he needs to tell me something, but he has to do it in ( Read more... )