Feeling the cold..through my bones..the whole day...im back at square 1...nothing change...i prayed so hard... letting all of it with HIM...He takes control...Im missing the part where I have to let go and trust Him.

It was really sweet Feb 17th.
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The thing about sorting my own demons is I always become stranger to people I thought I knew as my friends. People would judge me and how I act but i guess thats just how it is. The end of the day I have to win my own battles and the hell they care if i lose. I am reminded not to think of what other people would say as they dont really know me. It ( Read more... )

Oo, nagpakatanga na naman ako. Inaamin ko naman na may nararamdaman pa ako para sa kanya. He tested me, bumigay ako. Mabait talaga si Lord sakin kasi binigyan nya pa ako ng isang chance. Napaiyak ako. Ayoko nang pahirapan ang sarili ko para sa kanya. Narealized ko na kahit anong mangyari sakin, wala syang pakialam. I deserve better.

Sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na tama. Tatanga tanga lang ako na umaasa na maibabalik ko pa sya. Niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko na kahit kaunti baka iniisip nya pa ako. Sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na mahal na mahal ko pero niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko kasi pinagpalit nya na ako. Wala na syang pakiaalam sakin. Ang sakit kahit anung pilit ko iconvince ang ( Read more... )

Ganito pala masaktan ng sobra, yung gusto mo nalang mamatay at hindi mo na maisip ang bukas. Ang sakit pag pinagpalit ka na ng taong wala ka naman ibang ibinigay kung hindi yung pag mamahal mo lang. Yung sakit na hindi mawala wala kahit iiyak mo ng isang daan beses. Idasal mo ng milyong beses. Itulog mo, kinabukasan masakit pa din ( Read more... )

I have been crying, I dont know what to think anymore. I dont want to cry but my tears keeps on flowing. I want to scream so loud and wanting him to hear me curse. If there is such a word to call a person for taking all the bullshit she didnt deserve that would probably my nickname ( Read more... )

My love is pouring out at the moment...to the person that would never be mine.my mind is fucking with me at the moment as i can sense there is something going on again.i wanted to break but im a slave.he caught me by the neck. I dont want to fight anymore.

my mind is drifting...what have i done wrong to be treated as shit, verbally abused when all i did is to love and serve him...

I cant help but cry everytime i think about how i threw my ego and pride away and kneeling asking his forgiveness and second chance.

I guess there is no more second chance, he fucked someone else, flirted with someone else ( Read more... )

Fuck you!!!!!!tangina!tangina talagaa!tangina mo!i dont fucking deserve this!why im fucking fuck!tangina talga!!!tangina nya!tanginaaaaaaaaaaa!gusto kong sumigaw!!!!tangina naaaa!