Carson and I hadn't been on the best of terms the past couple of days. It's a long story that I won't be getting into, and besides, we've resolved it now. I went over to his apartment last night and things were awkward at first, at least for me, but that went away quickly and pretty soon we were back to our old insane selves ( Read more... )

It's been a hectic week (when is it not?). It's our last one in Dallas before heading back to New York, so we had to be quick filming the last episode, and we've actually got at least one more day of shooting left on it. Something really good that happened this week interrupted the filming for about a day or two. I'd tell you what it is, but if you ( Read more... )

I'm about to go over and spend some time with Carson. You'd think I see enough of him during the week when we're filming... maybe I'm a glutton for punishment. I'm just kidding, but he knows that, and he probably isn't even reading this. He's such drama. This is the six year anniversary of when him and Fabio broke up and he's all sorts of jumbled ( Read more... )

I always love it when the episodes of the show bring back memories. Even traumatizing ones. Tuesday night's episode showed the gel fight Ted and I had, and I know, I deserved to get gel put in my hair by Jai after inflicting the same fate on Ted, but still. At least it gets the message out there that hair gel is a crime. Plus it taught me the ever ( Read more... )

When people say that they'd like to live a certain day of their life over again, it seems to me that a majority of the time, they want to live it over to have a chance to fix what happened in that particular day. There would be things they'd take out or they would erase all the events and start over fresh. It's rarer that someone wants to live a ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a little nervous, but it's that kind of excited nervous, not the "I'm dreading this so please kill me now" nervous. It's the kind of nervous that makes my step a little lighter, and if I were the type to skip, I might have done just that today. However, since I didn't want to risk being mercilessly mocked by the rest of the Fab Five, I ( Read more... )

Dallas isn't exactly the location away from New York City that I would have chosen to travel to at this point, but for the next three weeks, I'm in Dallas with the other four guys. We're doing three episodes here. I'm actually rushing to write this during a filming break, because we started filming the first one today, at a fraternity. I'll let you ( Read more... )

Cravings before sleep don't disappear after sleep; they only seem to grow stronger, especially when the dreams had during sleep are full of certain images and reminders of words that had been said while one was awake. The insinuations and words unsaid are there, too, and just when I think I've forgotten them, they come back around again. Maybe it's ( Read more... )

Screaming girl fans are wasted on me. I sometimes feel like I should make it up to them by pointing out Ashton Kutcher or some other nearby celebrity, except I can never find a nearby celebrity when I need one. I could point them toward the imaginary straight member of the Fab Five that I hear so much about, but I don't know which one of us that is ( Read more... )