Im sick of this lj so I made a new one.
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Ive completely lost control of everything. Im spiraling downward into depression again (as I do every winter). Fuck, I dont even care. Im so stressed out, and as much effort as Im exerting into getting everything done, I feel like Im accomplishing absolutely nothing. I just feel absolutely worthless. Im seriously so stressed out that I just want to ( Read more... )

If you read this, even if we do not speak often, comment with one memory of me.
It can be anything you want, good or bad.
Just as long as it happened.
Then post this on your livejournal to see what other people remember about you.

I miss everything.
I was looking over photos from sophmore year. that year was amazing
last year was amazing, I think this year will be incredible.
I miss alex, My lovely photo girl. we were so close. we drifted a bit, but I am willing to
make the effort to change that.

I was thinking about that day after my sister had surgery on her back. when i ( Read more... )

Ed left for College on Thursday. I cried alot that day. I havent really left my house much, only to go shopping with my mom and such. Iast night I went to a show at charm city art space. that was fun. Its hard for me to talk to other guys. Even though hes in New York, and were not dating anymore, it still feels like Im cheating on him. Im not ( Read more... )

These next few days will undoubtedly be the hardest days I have to face yet.

Rehobeth Sucked. I went to Rehobeth Beach on Saturday.. what a waste. We went there to see this sand castle contest that my mom thought would be cool. it blew. it was really bad. To sum it all up, I ate sushi that made me sick, I have a farmers tan, scratch that, farmers fucking burn that looks like a really bad rash, and sand in places that i ( Read more... )

I have no friends anymore.
I dont know why i do this every summer. I stop talking to pretty much everyone. I feel like, they dont talk to me first because they dont like me or dont want to talk to me, and then when i do talk to them i feel like i just annoy them or something, or seem to desperate. idk. I need to get over that.
the end.

Dear Dad,

Im never good at beginings of letters, infact Im quite terrible at them. Well what can I say that you dont already know.

We havent had that great of a relationship, but at the same time were growing substancially closer each time we see eachother. However, there are a few areas of concern I have, in which i think you are intitled to be ( Read more... )

how is it possible that i always fall out of touch with people durring the summer.
Ive barely talked to krystal, shes going to New York? WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN? and how did I
not know that? shes my bestfriend, does she even consider me her bestfriend anymore? ahh IDK! 
come to think about it, i havent really talked to anyone. ive just been kind of.. by ( Read more... )