I have noticed that when I have strong feelings, especially those involving pain and confusing, I have an overly strong desire to pour my heart out on (digital) paper. Like I've found that creative inspiration that moves me to words...and more. Too bad it doesn't move me to express myself in more financially benefiting avenues like book writing, ( Read more... )

Today I had one major event that was somewhat bundled. I can't go into what happened due to the nature of it, but let me just say that it involved timing and gently facing certain fears, and at the same time learning how to be calm. Calm is the key. I need to relax and learn to always be calm in these kinda situations. I thought I would be, but ( Read more... )

Y'know, if someone was to read my journal or facebook, because my journal links to my facebook they'd probably have some opinions that are a little off. Recently, I seemed to have been emotionally wrapped up in this fucked up confusing mess surrounding my feelings towards Kasey. That's kinda true. I mean, I still like the girl. I guess I'm ( Read more... )

So, I finally got it out of Kasey how her feelings have changed. She said she just wanted to be friends. O rly? When I asked why she said it was because: she thinks I like her more than she likes me. Ok fair enough. But, if that's the case, then why did she seen me all the pictures and text messages? Why did she bitch to me about work related ( Read more... )

...all of this could be imagined. Maybe she just doesn't like me, but is too shy too tell me. Which is really shitty, because if she didn't like me I could accept that and move on with my life. But, from what I've seen, I don't think that's the case ( Read more... )

I think that's a new record for me. And, all three were completely separate yet still amazingly vivid. Had I detailed the dreams the moment I woke up the stories would've been much more elaborate, but meh I felt like going back to sleep. The dreams I had took place between 7am and 830am ( Read more... )

Holy fuck! Fuck Live Journal and my computer. I was about three paragraphs into my post when the page decides to time out...how? I dunno ( Read more... )

...just don't do it ( Read more... )

I went outside about a couple hours ago, and sat along the trail behind my house where it connects with Keff's trail (behind his house). I just sat there for the longest time (~45mins) letting my mind unwind and drift off. I started thinking about nature and how it related to my life ( Read more... )

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