Going to vegas in about 8 hours, need to be ready in about 5-5 1/2 hours. I fucking nervous. Whatever I guess I will get over it. Glad to be getting out of work for five days. It's crazy. It's exciting. Crazy little life I lead. My head feels like I am going crazy. Should go pack, should go get a pedicure, should go deposit money, so many ( Read more... )

I told Scot it was over, but now I can't get him out of my fucking head. He was so fucking persistant for so long that I just don't get it. The other thing I don't get is that now that Phil is my boyfriend that I am getting irritated when he doesn't call me back. It's just been the past couple of days. It's just that I want him to be honest if ( Read more... )

Vegas is coming so soon. I need money, lots and lots of money. It's so sad. I can't seem not to spend money. Ok well so my plan to save money is to spend all my time before I leave making money. I am going to jam pack my schedule with work. Thats a great plan isn't it. I am going to work out and work as much as humanly possible. It's only ( Read more... )

I feel awful. I have felt like shit all day. I went to work late, overslept. I can't get rid of this fucking fever. It's like I am complelty drained. I have had enough medicine that I feel sick from all the pills I have been taking. I have slept all day on and off yet wake up in cold sweats. I feel so shitty. My co-worker told me tonight to ( Read more... )

Is it wierd that I dreamed of the day my best friend would say he wanted to be with me. I was overjoyous until my coworker told me to not to get too excited over it incase it doesn't work out like I planned. That was like a shot to the heart. It's not like he even said we should date it was more or less, lets give it a try see if it works out. ( Read more... )

Maybe Scot hasn't been lying this entire time. Maybe I should have believed him from the beginging and this is just funny ( Read more... )

Am I a cold person? Maybe who knows. I try to act like things don't faze me but they do. I never really know how to act when I am dissappointed. Like when the guy I like talks about liking another girl. Should I have acted upset, jealous, etc. or been happy that maybe this girl would like him back.(Which is how I tried to act.) Should I be ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I am locked in a postion in life. Like I am in prison, the prison of my life. Things are going well at work. I had a couple of beers with a coworker yesterday, and he said he was always happy when I was working because I am always willing to help him and that I always keep him out of the weeds. He bought me a drink and he ( Read more... )

I need more livejournal friends and this is why:

I have just been having a bad weekend up intil sat night. I was going to just go home and go to bed/ mope around my house. Liz on the other hand did an amazing job of convincing me to go to Dekalb. So I did. The drive there usually makes me feel a little better. I love seeing the nothingness around me, so peaceful, but it didn't help, almost ( Read more... )