I realize I totally forgot to post these here. These are the paintings that I was working on to help get me through the last month. With the way they turned out, it made me really think it would be a good idea to do a gallery show, most likely focusing on my green-haired darling and how I see him and the way he makes me feel (and this big, dumb ( Read more... )

So long story short, my green haired honey decided to man up and put things back on the rails. Last night, he came over to hang out and during the course of the afternoon, he told me that he wanted to start seeing me officially again. You will all be proud to know that this came about while we were watching Laputa: Castle in the Sky and he decided ( Read more... )

Why would he tell me he misses me and is lonely and then talk about how good it is that he's given everything away? My beloved texted me the quotes from two songs, one that was about missing my touch, and also that he was "listening to memories of my voice", and then a song that generally seemed to be about two people working through a dark time, ( Read more... )

Thanks to all the amazing people who left comments on my post yesterday. I'd kind of forgotten how, despite all the stupidness of the internet, there are so many great people who can lend a helping hand in times of trouble. It's almost as good as therapy, haha ( Read more... )

Why does this have to hurt so much? Things had been going really well with my green haired honey to a poit where we had both individually felt like we were on the brink of rekindling things when we met up the other night. But he showed up with attitude and right out of the gate, he made a comment about how everyone at his job knew I was his ex ( Read more... )

Photos of my new hair! I really do feel a lot more empowered and confident in myself with this hair, though it doesn't stop my heart from hurting when I think of my green-haired honey. I miss him so, so, so much, and though I won't see him for another week and a half when we hang out again, I think the more I leave him in peace, the faster he'll ( Read more... )

So as part of my campaign to really change my mindset into a more positive one, I did something that I'm sure any of you who have known me long enough would never think could happen ( Read more... )

I met with my green-haired darling yesterday before I went to work. (Well, his hair is no longer green... it has since been red, then bleach blond... it's still blond, but now short... but... details!!) Anyway, I had been a little nervous at first for obvious reasons, since I haven't really seen him face-to-face since everything first happened two ( Read more... )

I'm sorry that I suddenly reappear on the internet and all I have to talk about is heartache. Putting everything up here has reminded me what a solid, supportive community we have here for things beyond just anime, though. Though I think I'll manage, certain now that everything will be okay ( Read more... )

I think I'm finally at peace with what my boyfriend is trying to do for himself, knowing that it's not exactly going to be easy allowing things to happen on his time instead of mine, but also knowing that if I believe in everything he says and that he is just speaking from his heart, everything will work itself out. The song 'Simple Man' by Lynard ( Read more... )