Nothing is new. Nothing has changed. I'm existing, on the edge of explosion, trying to cram in all of this work and love. Trying to make so many plans, you know? A concert, a friend coming to Vermont. Worries; will I be able to get a job during break? What about when I come back from break? Where can I work on campus? I am too aware of my slowly ( Read more... )

I think I may be writing unfairly about college; I'm having more fun than maybe it seems. But it's easier to say the things that are more difficult. I talked to Lyz on the phone for an hour and a half today. Which was really good for me. Thank you so much babe; seeing you in a month! I am counting the days ( Read more... )

There is going to be a movie of the Voices Project. Not just the DVD-of-the-staged-production that was put together at the last moment. But an actual movie. A movie ( Read more... )

It is hard to tell what a mistake is anymore. I guess I shouldn't try to determine that before this all is over.

The rain makes it worse.

Let me explain, will you ( Read more... )

There is just more than an hour until my first dance class. Ever. Things here are pretty ridiculous, but I am loving it. So far, it has been really good for me. I have been hanging out with a lot of different people, and I guess, life is just beautiful and complicated ( Read more... )

There is so much that is going on in my head that I can't sort out into coherent ideas. So crammed full of things I want to say that they cannot organize themselves into letters to make up words to make up meaning. But this overrides them all: my knowledge that I am being dramatic. And I don't know why. I don't know why this matters. Why the way ( Read more... )

Too much has been left unsaid.

I leave things out, because they are potentially unimportant, or awkward, or unpleasant, or might be misunderstood, or too true for the moment. Or sometimes because I think you should already know.

I love you. And you and you and you. Just in case you didn't know.

There are many things to be said. But no way to articulate them; not yet, anyway ( Read more... )

I'm all done with high school (finally ( Read more... )