i don't know if its good or bad, but i think that him and i are going to start talking again. unless he just said that, who knows. it'd be nice to talk to him again but maybe he's just playing one of his little games again. i'll just sit by and wait for things to happen. he's been playing another game as well....he's pretending to be happy. why and ( Read more... )

i got a very wonderful phone call from someone that i was hardly expecting to call. i loved talking with them. THANKS FOR CALLING! i miss you...

anyways, things are going pretty darn well. i'm happy.

how are you?

i'm a lot happier with my life now than i was about a month ago.  things are finally starting to look up and fall into place of where they should be ( Read more... )

so its one thing when ur mom tells u that she's happy ur not living there anymore ( Read more... )

so its one thing when ur mom tells u that she's happy ur not living there anymore...

its another when she doesn't come to the hospital when ur having surgery or even call to see how you're doing.

the days are drawing near and i'm worried out of my mind.

dear cute boy,

please be there for me. i need u now more than ever before.

love,
cute girl.

so i know what hope feels like. and i love that feeling. but i never knew that a glimpse of it would hurt. seeing somethingthat u want so bad, but u aren't able to reach. it really sucks. especially when u know that's all u want and need. i want that hope back. i want to be happy.

i'm done dealing with people 's shit. it seems as though i need ( Read more... )

i have surgery at noon. but have to be at the hosp at 10

let's see how many people actually care enough to call or anything.

my guess: 1, maybe.

i'm really worried about going to the DR's today. i'm afraid that all i will hear will be bad news that i don't want to hear. seems like the odds are against me for this one though. there's no fighting it and letting it ride out, bc that can kill me, but there is surgery action, and that sucks. i'm just nervous bc if i do end up needing the surgery ( Read more... )

for u to come along and disappoint me. it hurts, like a knife digging into my back.

but i'm glad i have a penny. =)

i'm sure no one gets the point of this, but really i don't want to explain it to anyone, so don't bother asking.

i have a DR appt for tomorrow at 1:15, to see about the lump in my breast.....