When I came back to this site, I was so embarrassed by what I had written years ago. I have no better excuse than "I was young and immature" back then...which I suppose I was, but it was only two years ago. Although it doesn't seem too long in the grand scheme of things, when I think about 2009, it seems light years away. I think about the classes ( Read more... )

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all of my life people have said to me... "why would you want to do that? you could do so much more, make so much more money, be so much more successful, make such a difference ( Read more... )

i'm sure the rest of the world is aware of this... but going to the gym, pretty much makes me happy when i'm aggravated/stressed/upset. just saying.. =) so happy to be able to go back finnnnnally !

3 weeks. p-u-m-p pumped.

i dont get it. for real.. like how many people do i have to say goodbye to before i'm left all alone ? its funny because with ani gone, i think that brings the number up to at least 5 of my BEST friends.. basically the ONLY people who i am comfortable with... gone, moved away. i know its only for the semester in most of the cases and i get to see ( Read more... )

sometimes, bad things happen to good people. sometimes, bad things happen for no reason. sometimes, it's easier to just let it all go. sometimes, it is what it is. everything- all of the important, useless, good or bad things, it all comes and goes.

the past few days have been so weird. i feel like i have said "i miss you" to about 500 different people, 500 different times. i think i say "i miss you" without actually missing people, but more because i haven't seen them in awhile, and think i'm supposed to miss them. that most likely makes zero sense to anyone but me. the people i really miss ( Read more... )

I know first week is always stressful and dreadful for almost everyone, but if I tried to describe the way I am feeling this week, the only thing to say is that I'm feeling exactly as I did last year. The horrible nightmare of my life for 2 months seems to have come back, not necessarily in full force, but it's most definitely the same feeling. I ( Read more... )

"he is like my little brother and best friend. he is the nicest kid i have ever met." - quoting myself from a [private] entry a few weeks back ( Read more... )

i wouldn't go as far as calling it fate, but sometimes i feel so lucky that things work out the way they do. it amazes me how things work.. when things go from awesome, to horrible, back to a different kind of awesome again. after so much on and off, so much awkwardness, so much going on with everyone interfering... things are better than i ever ( Read more... )