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GLITTER IS BORING
i don't sparkle, I don't want to sparkle, and my identity has nothing to do with glitter. -
dreams
well.
i dreamed that i ate the face off my nemesis.
and also that i was stuck at my parents' house with some weird jews who were demanding that the shondes assassinate a progressive rabbi with a blunt stake. -
i will have my revenge on liberalism
[Ha ha, yeah yeah, fucking hilarious. I'm a scary, mean 8 and I'm going to defend revenge.]
Somewhere along the line, liberalism, it all its equivocating cowardice -- RUINED REVENGE and that sucks. As far as I'm concerned, the desire to avenge injustice is an important one, not a childish, overly-simplistic one. How to ethically manage and express ( Read more... ) -
storytelling and storykeeping
Does everyone have great anxiety about losing their own stories? In my lifetime of serial monogamy, I have always had ONE SPECIAL person who is like, my story-holder. It's a pretty important role in my life. The problem, then, of course, is when you lose that person, you feel you've lost all these important things you asked them to hold onto for ( Read more... ) -
what a nice voice.
To be a SINGER, like any vocation-identity, suggests all sorts of weird requirements besides the obvious ones. I bet aspiring Writers picture long days spent sitting on sun-drenched leather furniture with ink stains all over their hands, and similarly, being a SINGER, to me, was this fantasy involving less unruly hair and a better face. When I was ( Read more... ) -
bad.
My mother instilled in me the completely naturalized, immutable knowledge that i am Bad. She, as the absolute arbiter of good+evil in my formative years, had the ability to play upon this knowledge in various ways. But from an early point I can't identify, that knowledge was mine, and no longer just one of many messages I was receiving, full of the ( Read more... ) -
watch me express my needs
1) i need someone to talk to about SECRET LIFE..., especially now that a) Ashley will be portraying Tally in the new Uglies movie, and b) i'm up-to-date and will be watching NEW episodes, instead of falling asleep to hulu's apparently NOT endless supply of past seasons.
2) no, that's it for now. -
an endless series of unclosed doors
right now it feels like my life is made up of a series of relationship-doors that are just slightly ajar. somehow, in my life, it's rare that people decide "i'm done with you, forever. it's over." which, for the most part, is a good thing about people, or so i'm told. i think some of us have more doors left in this ambiguous state than others ( Read more... ) -
Office Days
the back of my skull, where it meets my neck, is in excruciating pain. it's one of those aches borne of too many nights on the floor and too many hours in the van. i'm sitting in my office, easing back into the aches of poorly-situated desks and inexplicable chair heights. my blackberry-thumb is transitioning to mouse-cramp. all is wrong in the ( Read more... ) -
tour days
there are few things stranger than the moment you switch gears from the frenetic wrap-up of pre-tour to getting in the van en route to tour destination one. the two modes have so little in common, it's shocking to the system. i have been trying to leave my dayjob in a sane and fair state for my coworkers, and of course, to mail out about 4 million ( Read more... )