Tueday night I had an episode that scared the crap out of me. I was very exhausted when I got home Tuesday afternoon from work and I laid down for a couple of hours. I got up to take care of The Weebles and get something to eat and laid back down. Another couple of hours later, I was going to get up and close up for the night when Something hit me ( Read more... )

Ya know … the hard kind? The kind you don’t want to post but you know you have to. And I have had a whole weekend to deal with the news so … here goes ( Read more... )

So once again last night I could not get any sleep. I don't think I have slept more than 10 hours since Sunday night. You know what happens when people don't sleep ... they get to be terribly cranky and jump into abyss ( Read more... )

If my doctor approves of my taking a week's break from chemotherapy and if my friend can arrange things - a couple of big "ifs" right there - I may have a chance to get away from everything for a week ( Read more... )

Okay ... here's the deal ( Read more... )

When my brother came over yesterday to take out the trash, he told me that his wife was in Pennsylvania with her ailing father and would not be back till later this week. Actually she is coming back on the day that he needs to go in for a second biopsy ... but that is another story ( Read more... )

anderyn just called to check in on me. In the midst of all her problems she called to check on me ( Read more... )

1. I am officially going to stop asking God for things. I am tired of His answer always being "no". I think He and I have finally reached an understanding ( Read more... )

My feelings are valid!  
DAMMIT!!
You need to let me feel them and stop telling me they "will pass"!!!
YOU ARE NOT HELPING!!!!

ARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I have been in a serious funk since I got the results of my last CAT scan and I still have not gotten a call from the doctor’s office about the comparison of the two films. Not that it would probably do much good at this moment but still… I am not eating. I am not sleeping. I am not working full days. I cannot concentrate. I DO spend most of my ( Read more... )