Can you hear me? About 10 years ago or so I locked myself away in a house on the ocean, and I tried to… I said I was trying to write some music. Some of which wound up on The Fragile. But what I was really doing was trying to kill myself. And the whole time I was away by myself, I managed to write one song, which is this song. So when I play it I ( Read more... )

Im finally getting toward what i want. It just seems theres always strings attached and nothing can just be easy. I love these people. I was made for college.

could you take me back to where we began
we could walk along the edge again
if you'll take me back to where this started

am i truly heartless?
am i full of bitter hatred?
am i that bad?

am i letting others name me,
letting them attempt to take control
and make me amount to nothing,

i don't understand
why people
want to make me
so small.

help me with something?
lead me to pretty things
things that will make me smile
sites, pics, music.

i need to get away from my

why is it i go through periods where i am so deeply depressed. it's a good thing that i am not constantly low, but these bursts of sorrow are coming at the worst times. and i don't know how to help it. little things turn to big things which relate to other things which leaves me with a lot to be unhappy about. i hate to sound so sad because for ( Read more... )

i really should be doing homework. i had a snow day and i didn't use it to my advantage. i still have a huge paper to write and a lot of busywork to do for tomorrow. i can't get myself to do my schoolwork or take it seriously. well,i guess it depends ( Read more... )

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i wish i had more to say these days
this vacation is basically nonexistent.
it's already almost over.
and i have a ton of work to do.
school is becoming more of a drag every day.

i might be stopping therapy.
or at least alotting more time between visits.
i have less and less to say.
less and less are my questions answered

well...it's about time i have some pictures to post

( well here you go )

what is it about bloodflower that i find so intriguing?

he's made a third one. this time, gauze.


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