I just read a great book called Atlas of the Human Heart by ariel gore (yes, of hip mama fame). It was a good read for me because it was easy and light and hopeful, which is what I need right now. And all the travel writing just makes me itch to get out of town. I am reallyhoping that after I graduate I can find a job making really good money. ( Read more... )

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I'm having a real hard time with Q not eating anything.  I'm getting really sick of making him food only to have him shoot me a "WTF is this?" look and throw it all on the floor.  If it looks foreign to him he won't even try it. Seems like I spend more time cleaning up crap off the floor than anything. ( And we got ants AND mice now, so I'm always ( Read more... )

There is so much to write about but I'm pretty tired and should really just sleep, but not sure if the brain is ready. Q had a hard day today.  I called B to check in and he was crying in the background and it just broke my heart.  He was off all day, not sure why.  I started to get all paranoid because he fell off the bed twice last night and ( Read more... )

This older lady I was friends with in Alaska is coming down to Portland to visit.  She tracked me down and she wants to come stay with me for a few days.  I'm kinda freaking out about it.  She's sort of a wacked-out mountain woman who's spent way too much time by herself and/or with drunken fishermen. I mean...she's a nice lady and all, and she was ( Read more... )

I've been thinking alot about whether or not going back to grad school is such a good idea.  I mean right now.  I just love being with Q so much.  Kissing his chubby cheeks, smooching all over him.  Cuddling him and letting him hold my hand and drag me all over the place.  He is so cute these days.  I think we are both happier now that he's walking ( Read more... )

Ever since I quit smoking I've been  chowing down without thinking about it.  I feel very annoyed and mad at myself for eating a bunch of crap.  It's like okay I quit smoking and I'm trying to excercise and eat healthy. All week I'm brown bagging it eating salads and beans and then next thing I know I'm eating a  whole bag of cookies.  Then I feel ( Read more... )

Oh what a tangled web we weave...

I'm trying to stay in the center.  "The Core" as the yoga teachers say.  I have been going to yoga every week for 3 weeks now and I am very excited about that.  I'm just trying out different classes and trying to figure out where I fit in. But I'm realizing that the mediation and all the body-focus and breathing and ( Read more... )

I am trying to let this go.  It is very very difficult.  My neighbors have been throwing their trash and dog shit (yes, DOG CRAP) over the fence into our backyard.  They don't speak English and I have not been able to muster up enough Spanish to say anything to them.  I have just been picking it up,  and trying to let it go. Well... that was before ( Read more... )

yesterday was sort of a strange day.  Father's Day.  I took Q down to the Pride Parade.  We met up with some friends and it was pretty fun.  I actually wore makeup and glitter and that in itself was worth it for me. Q was not impressed though.  He had this grouchy face on the whole time...He gets this serious and annoyed look and it seems like he's ( Read more... )