When I was born again, I learned a lot about spiritual warfare and I’ve engaged in a lot of it. I suspect a lot of it was probably necessary. You come under a lot of attack when you take a leap forward in your commitment ( Read more... )

In Madeleine L'Engle's "The Severed Wasp" the protagonist is a recently retired, world-famous, concert pianist. She begins to have "attacks of the past" where memories of events that she didn't have time to process when she was busy travelling the world and performing come back to haunt her ( Read more... )

I think I’m wrestling with God or with evil spirits but I’m really wrestling with myself. The spirit of pride is just my own unwillingness to submit to something greater than myself. It’s a terrible struggle to subdue it. There is no worst enemy than your own evil nature ( Read more... )

A verse on K____’s blog leapt out at me, “you have not because you ask not”. Well, I may envy her always fitting in the right groove in life but that doesn’t change the fact that God hasn’t made me want what she wants. I still don’t want her life. I just want to fit as neatly into my life as she does into hers ( Read more... )

I feel bruised by this year. I feel like I’ve been let down ( Read more... )

I was thinking today about Merton’s reasoning on how we like to make little tin gods of ourselves and work terribly hard to achieve things and be accomplished, in order to force other people admire us. This admiration then justifies and reinforces our reality of being little tin gods in our own universe ( Read more... )

When I was younger, I wanted to do extravagant things for God. I think I had some Joan of Arc complex or something ( Read more... )

I realised a short time ago that the last time I was really happy was when I was still an active member of the HP fandom, writing lots of fanfic and, thanks to Panny, had found some really fantastic friends and fellow writers on-line ( Read more... )

I dunno, I wish someone would write something original about God. Like how He changes you and because of that changing, you can know Him better ( Read more... )

St Benedict wrote that "to work is to pray". That being the case, I've been doing a lot of praying in the past 18 years or so. Mostly, praying that Mum and I would have a more stable and peaceful future ( Read more... )