Wow. I have no idea where this time all seems to have gone but all of a sudden there is time again. Not really summer, but for all of our purposes it is? So far we have no made concrete plans. The kids are in school. That still feels so funny for me to say, somewhat. It is nearly a year since everything in my life changed so much for the better ( Read more... )

I painted a heart in a shade of red that looked almost bloody. I didn’t like it, so I mixed more red, and painted another, same. Wash, rinse, repeat. I kept on panting them, almost abstractly, all in different shades of red, until the entire canvas was covered with red and none of them looked like hearts, rather layers and layers of shapes, all ( Read more... )

I have a show! I knew this of course, after such a huge surprise of it all, we have our break and there was good news for Fernando, but now… when we get home it is time for me to really buckle down and get this organized. It feels like there is so much to do. Even just to pick which to display. Some of my best work, I can not put out for the public ( Read more... )

I have never had a Christmas morning with kids before. Not since me and my brother were kids anyway, and it was, it was everything I had been expecting, and so much more, even. I thought maybe I would sleep in, I was sort of so afraid of it, I did not sleep much at all and then when I finally gave up on sleep I crept downstairs to find Heidi and my ( Read more... )

It was my birthday this week. It is sort of one of those days filled with fun, but this year it was all different. I woke up alone, which is not unusual for birthdays, but has become mostly unusual for me. Fernando had been gone forever though because of the rodeo, which I did go to one night and was impressed by, but not as impressed as I would be ( Read more... )

I have sat down and thought about how thankful I am before, and have had huge family gatherings like this, and have sometimes even combined the two in my own way, but this was very different for me. The food was amazing. I think traditional thanksgiving foods, as well as some awesome traditional Italian food. I decided that I am a big fan of both. ( Read more... )

I spent a good half of an hour the other day trapped behind a chair playing hide and go seek. Finally I was rescued and then I was of course caught, but the rescue was very worth it. And really, I was not in the game to win anyway. I would have been found sooner or later, she is too good at the game for that not to have happened. It was very fun ( Read more... )

There are times when you feel so close to someone, you think... that even though you have only known them for a short time in the large scheme of things, that there is almost no closer to get. And then you get so much closer, and it is so intense and amazing, and wow, you can not help but wonder if this is going to be the way things are forever. ( Read more... )

I went to day camp with Alex today. It was art day and she wanted me to come and have some fun with her. I think it was possibly the biggest thing I have ever been asked, well aside from will you marry me, but yes, we went and I helped about a half million (they were loud enough to be at least that many) kids paint. The teacher there was fun, she ( Read more... )

Late nights, being woken up by a crying child, climbing out of a warm embrace, whispering it was okay and going to another room to see him crying and so upset by whatever had woken him up. Feeling his little body relax and cling to me, upon that first touch, his arms around my neck and his breath evening out as he relaxed, as though all he needed ( Read more... )