I think that we've got what it takes to get this heart start beating again, so take it all the way. And our hearts are on the everglow, so just let go and fall into it.[Mae; The Everglow ( Read more... )

I don't know what to say. Maybe I should just spend my time all alone.

It hurts so bad to fall for someone and get rejected like that. It hurts much worse to know that your best alternative will break your heart. And I think the story of my life is I am exhausted with my own inability to fix the situation. Sometimes life deals you shitty cards.

What a world, what a life, I'm in love!

A millionaire is justified in spending lots of money on expensive items. No one will call him crazy. If he loses his job, however, he can't continue to spend money in the same way anymore. If he goes bankrupt and continues to try to spend money he doesn't have on luxuries he doesn't need, he is certainly crazy. Similarly, if he has emotional ( Read more... )

k so i've started a diet, started working out, focused my life on jesus, started to overhaul my wardrobe, started to attend churches and surround myself with godly people, and tried to keep up on reading. whats missing ( Read more... )

all my life i have had an acute sense of forgiveness and staunchness. people mistake this for neediness. just because i will continually do my best to maintain a relationship with you doesn't mean i need you. it means i appreciate you. there's a difference!

lol i feel better. it must be a combination of lots of prayer, by me and for me, a few drinks to help me cope with the sadness finally, an interesting chain of biblical revelation, and some good advice from my boss. don't get me wrong, i still miss her and would enjoy spending the rest of my life with her, or at least finding out whether or not ( Read more... )

i spend all my time wanting to get just a little closer to her. its unhealthy i guess. i don't know if the best solution is to get over her or to reach out to her. i feel really angry. in the time that we were engaged, and waiting to graduate because her parents told her to graduate before we get married, dozens of couples have gotten married. if ( Read more... )

ugh. i miss you so much, i just wish i was closer to you.

did i mention i need to post to my lj more to avoid bleeding directly out of my heart into everyone else's faces ( Read more... )