starting asap, i am going to be checking my millikin e-mail less and less and less until i don't check it at all in probably like a month when i move to tx. please, please, please, please start sending things to my new address, kgietl@gmail.com. it should be pretty easy to remember because it's the same except at gmail instead of millikin. ( Read more... )

...i'm updating. it's been almost two months. but i'm in a good mood today. i graduate in, let's see, four days! sorry, had to take a second to count. and my party is in three days. amy and i are going to sam's club today to pick out a cake and look at food. amy and sean are being amazing to me. they are throwing me this awesome party and ( Read more... )

thank you heavenly father. i just had the most spiritual week of my life. my life was saved--some would say it was the safety features of a 2005 honda civic. i'd say it was definitely that plus heavenly father's love. sad part is i don't deserve it. but that's another story. though i'm working on deserving it. scott and i had a pretty bad ( Read more... )

5 days til san antonio. and i see scott. let me tell you, i can't wait. i also can't wait to see my parents. that's in two days. and my birthday's in nine. woohoo! actually i need to get more pumped up about all this stuff than i am. inside i'm excited but outside i'm not showing it. don't know why. probably becaused i'm sick. had the ( Read more... )

this is freaky (except my symbol isn't hearts--it's stars, but they even got the color right!)

Your Birthdate: March 24
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if i took the lord's name in vain, i'd do it right now. that's how shocked i am. i have borderline personality disorder. i've known that for about a year and a half since i was diagnosed. but i've never been able to find out what it really is. friends would say, "this is your borderline personality disorder coming out" when i'd do something, ( Read more... )

i've decided on definitely getting a new tattoo. it's going to be a painting/sketch by Frida Kahlo from her personal journal. it's very symbolic because Frida was a very sick and depressed person and drawing was theraputic to her. and i'm going to put this on my arm where i used to cut which was a therapy to me but this will be a healthier ( Read more... )

my life is nothing but darkness. i'm so depressed over this teaching thing. and lately all i do is drink (never get drunk but do drink) and think about how much i wanna have sex. last night it got so bad that i called and e-mailed the guy i had a really dumb one night thing with last year. the guy that practically wanted to rape me, just to see ( Read more... )

fuck. i know you said that wouldn't describe it all but it's the first word that comes to mind. it's what i've done to my life. maybe my mom is right--i should never have opened my mouth and told people i was "sick." but i'm an open person and i tell people everything. well, i think i've learned my lesson...the hard way, an extremely hard way ( Read more... )

posting this is gonna piss the living daylights out of jackie. but seeing she said this is the last time she gets angry over any of this, and that this is the last time she's gonna say anything...seems i might as well have the last laugh! besides i'd like some people who live the true meaning of friendship to see what she's really like. thanks ( Read more... )