found an old dvd with a copy of a music video i made back in 2003.  cheered me up despite the subject matter ( Read more... )

i cannot stand how i cannot stand certain people now.

any-THING that voted for trump.  jesus. and worst: 46% of eligible didn't vote.  ty, shit heads.

i mean, you don't know how some people are and they shit in your face and are happy about it.  WTF?

i can't love myself.

i don't believe in it.

i don't trust people that do.

but if you can love me, then i think i would be good with that.

i really wish i could wipe every memory, not skill, from the world. that would be a very short and welcome eden.

and no trump, and none of his ilk.  i abhor idiots, and i would gladly give up myself to rid everyone of such things.

i don't want a new civil war.  i want a clean slate.

tabula rasa

i "spoke" too soon...

one my prescriptions would have sent me to the morgue sooner than the ER, as it was starting to cause my throat to swell, and in a few days would have stopped air from reaching my lungs entirely.

went from mild discomfort to pain when moving my neck in 2 days (have only been taking it for 6 days), and luckily i caught on in ( Read more... )

i think this will be a good week ( Read more... )

my new motto whenever i don't want to do something like workout or do the dishes is: do it anyway.

maybe i can translate this into the social sphere and get a girlfriend for the first time in 7 years.

well after spending thursday thru sunday going  from the ER to ICU to general rooms for near fatal high blood pressure and heart rate, i have emerged from the crucible a new man ( Read more... )

gonna see if i can stomach some chicken noodle soup since i haven't eaten in 3 days, but, yea, just had a bowel movement.  TMI, you are welcome!

i slept almost all day today because of how sick i was.  4 hours on the "loo"  and then my body gave up.  not eaten anything in 24 hrs.

i love my life...