i finally finished going through my "memory box" of us and writing down some stuff that i associate with each thing in there so that i don't forget. it was hard, sad, and a little pathetic... funny how memorabilia is so meaningless when you just look at it without any inside knowledge. pieces of paper, dried flowers, jewelry. it all seems so ( Read more... )

My friend Annalee at work is having a sort of crisis like mine, in a way...she wants to leave LA and she finally told her boyfriend of 3 years that she is going. He has been stalling forever and finally just said he's not ready to leave. It's really sad...not only because I don't want her to leave, but because the two of them love each other and ( Read more... )

Went up to the beach at Leo Carillo yesterday, since I didn't have to work and thought I would take advantage of weekend traffic.... it is so beautiful up there. I need to get away like that more often. It's so easy to get bogged down in the strip malls of Glendale and Burbank, stuck up against the mountains in the smog. I love the mountains but ( Read more... )

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Did I dissapoint you or let you down ( Read more... )

i just want to go somewhere that no one can hear me and scream at the top of my lungs with all of this pent-up anger and sadness and grief and frustration. just being hurts right now. fuck.

I'm home again in Indiana. It's 2:30 am and of course despite a looong day of flying, I can't sleep. I have a hair appointment at 11. Screw that ( Read more... )

so confused about what i want right now.... if i think any more my head will explode.

Katie, I just want you to know that I do know you sent me something and I think you are too sweet.... however, the post office seems to have misplaced it so I don't have it yet. Didn't want you to think I just wasn't saying anything ( Read more... )

he broke up with me. four and a half years and he broke up with me after four months of separation. in an email ( Read more... )