The good.  I get to see Hannah.

The bad.   I don't get to talk to Tim or go with Roxanne to Sweet Tomatoes.   Visit with Lori and the kiddos.

The ugly.   I have to see my stepfather.   Fuck me.

We took the kids to the pumpkin patch today.   Fun fun.   Pumpkin eating dinosaurs are a rarity.

I need my kids.   All of them.   They help me learn, they make me happy.

I rolled my ankle for the 4th or 5th time since being out of the walking cast.   I'm afraid I'm going to end up needing recasting.   Call into Pinzur.   He actually called me ( Read more... )

Meeting Janelle and Jayleen for dinner.  New friends who understand.  Met at PT, also long term patients of Denny's.   We bonded instantly ( Read more... )

Boundaries is something I've struggled with for as long as I can remember.  I don't like when they are changed on me without warning.  I imagine most people don't. Change is hard and changing existing relationships and setting new boundaries even harder.    But, I need to.   We all have people we are closer to than others.  It is ok.   Not ( Read more... )

 
Today is an angry day.    I have a million and one things I need and want to do.   And because of my foot/hip it is either very very difficult or simply not possible.    I still don't do anger well.

It's taking every little bit of energy to...

Fucking bloody hell.

I go to Dr. Pinzur on Tuesday.   This cast just needs to not be replaced for so ( Read more... )

 Nothing needs to be said.


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In the land of the unfunctional since my appointment.   Physical unmanageable pain.  Emotionally a mess, too ( Read more... )

Should I stay or should I go?   
I will be updating my friends list since many people rarely log in anymore.   As someone going through a dfficult time, I need to know who wants to continue to be a part of my journal and who doesn't.  If you respond regularly, I will assume you want to stay.  This is for those of you who I haven't heard from in ( Read more... )

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 I was awake for 10 hours since Friday afternoon.   A little tired perhaps?   SO not ready for another week of work.  Nor am I ready for the 3 other doctors appointments I have besides physical therapy.  How come taking care of yourself has to take up so much energy?  That's why its so much easier to just say fuck it all to hell.