So, fuggit, I joined a gym today.

Forced change, right? Yeah, I'm there.

Now to get my 7 year old into tumbling and yoga for kids... gawd I hope they have a Saturday class for her.

Mailed what I am told is the very last divorce paper to Scott today for signature. Once that is filed, damnit, I should be able to get a court date. He said he never wants to hear from me again, after this is over. That's very mature coming from the father of my children. He has blocked my email. With this settlement agreement is the child ( Read more... )

I took off the ring day before yesterday.

It's been on my other hand for more than 2 years off and on anyway. Now it is off forever. I don't know what it was offering me anyway, other than being a two thousand dollar chunk of platinum and diamonds that was heavy and pretty. I guess it was a reminder of comfort, however twisted that thought is, ( Read more... )

i feel really *really* alone right now.

yup, i did it to myself.

welcome to your life natasha.

Since my appetite seems to have deserted me, I've quit food for a few days.

I want: A sharp object running up my side, leaving behind a thin angry red line of blood coming to the surface. A few bruises. A few lash marks. A few tears hot running down my face. A few sobs. A few moments of trying to overcome my need to cry out to stop.

Kristen and her brood made my night by meeting up with me & the kids at HELL (a.k.a. ChuckECheese) for the evening ( Read more... )

And I may bitch about the cheesy goodness of BlutEngel,

But I love them because they covered Shakespeare's Sister "Stay", and honestly the male/female duet is a lot more sinister (like Orlando, right Kristen?!).

Absolutely miserable today ( Read more... )

Mmmmmmmmmh, new BlutEngel....

BEHOLD! THE POWER OF CHEESE!

Today was really zombified ( Read more... )