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tantrums
I miss being able to have temper tantrums - the kicking and screaming kind. Why is it considered childish and unacceptable to cry and yell at the top of your lungs every now and then? It leaves us to handle our feelings in more destructive ways, not having that release. Right now I'm handling pretty badly. Why must we be unkind to ourselves? ( Read more... ) -
fuck fuck fuck fuck
everything I am good at is a lie. I want to scream and flail and throw things. I could have done something productive or at least gotten some sleep in the past 5.5 hours, but instead I decided to waste all that time on frustration and incompetence. I hate everything and I want to punch everybody. I can't do this, I can't. -
om nom
EATING EVERYTHING
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uh oh
my parents are fighting with the dishwasher and it sounds like a monster. just in time for thanksgiving!
in other news, I think I might be on crack. -
dear Scott,
I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I never made you cupcakes and I'm sorry that sometimes I took you for granted and I'm sorry that I wasn't there when you tried to talk to me a couple weeks ago. I'm sorry for all the conversations we will never have and the time we will never spend together. I'm sorry for all the things you never got to experience ( Read more... ) -
rage
lately I've been having a lot of angry dreams. they usually involve me getting irrationally angry over stupid things and going into raging fits. I wake up feeling really uncomfortable because even though it hasn't happened lately, it is something that I do, and I really hate that about myself. what really disturbs me is that I've been pretty happy ( Read more... ) -
gargleglarble
what if this is my fourth year in the wrong major? what if the real world isn't any better and I hate what I do? I'm sick of the whole creative process. I hate concepting, I can't come up with stellar ideas, my designs are mediocre, and I'm tired of critique and reworking everything a million times. I just want a job where I don't have to think. -
mortal enemies
the name of my mac is optimus prime. today I installed windows 7 on a virtual machine and called it megatron. -
today
I have had an exhausting day. It's just been really mentally, emotionally, and physically draining. I think it's been rough and I've been trying to do too much instead of taking it easy. I wish I had time to write some of the things in my head, but I think sleep is the best thing for me now.