He looks into my hazel eyes and sees only the color that is deep within them. He'll never understand the emotions that are released on his computer screen as he reads my journal. Tears run down my cheeks as i read my own entries. I only think about what each of them truely means. If only everyone knew what i meant when i slid the razor down my arm ( Read more... )

The scars on my wrist cut open from the razor. Sleep is the only cure. I sleep. Sleep. sleep ( Read more... )

A tombstone place kindly in a dark cemetary. The letters faded from time. The long left tears have now sank into the earth and rested on the coffin. The roses have decomposed, and the coffin is just fine. The parties that raged on in this town above this body ( Read more... )

It lingers in my mouth for just a few seconds. Long enough to get the citrus taste in my mouth. I swallow it down like i do my emotions. It slightly chokes me. Too many thoughts race through my head as i cough and disperse this liquid on the floor. It disgusts me. I clean up the mess with the same towel i had used to wipe up the blood from earlier ( Read more... )

"I love you, i want you, i need you" That's all he said that night. It was a lie. He didn't want me. He didn't need me. He didn't love me. What the fuck? He hurt me so bad. He walks away from me everytime, leaving me believing he loves me. I fall for him everytime, believing he loves me. I pull myself out of the hole and search someone to fill the ( Read more... )

He walks alone in the pouring rain. Feeling every drop that fell down his cheek. It wasn't rain, it was tears. He has no where to go, no one to hold, no one to comfort him when he needed it the most. He arrives home, no one there to greet him. Off to his room. He sits in the dark and strips off his clothes. The crimson red blood drips off him like ( Read more... )

Let go of my chains. Let me be free. For once i want my wings to not be broken, i want to fly with the angels and let my soul go free. You can't hold me down! No more will i allow you to walk all over me, breaking my beautiful wings down. I want to fly from here, fly from you. No more will i be your BITCH! You can't stop me from running. FUCK YOU! ( Read more... )

I'm breaking my habit tonight. It hurts me just to think of everything that goes on in my mind. Breaking the truth and making everything fake is not me. I state who i am, where i'm going, why i'm there, who i'm with!! I am Me! Not you. so fuck you're opinion!! I will not stand here and let you disgrace my honor and my mind. You can not get in my ( Read more... )

He had it goin on like something...hmm...wicked wicked...i had to kick it...and then...i kicked kevin in the face! ha ha ha.... liar.(k) "back off bitch!" Sorry. I'm at kevins house because i spent the night there and got fucked up!!! WOOT!! but anyway on the lighter side, Brandon is so dead to me. YEAH! Did you know that Pepsi Vanilla and Vanilla ( Read more... )

Once again, i talked myself into believe something that i knew couldn't be true. Once again i let myself do what i knew was wrong. Once again, my heart was broken. Just a spacey moment my ass... FUCK YOU! You son-of-a-bitch! Don't try fucking talking to me. Go the fuck away, get out of my life. You don't exist to me anymore. Once you break it, you ( Read more... )