There are so many things I have to say, but I honestly don't have the patience to write any detail about it ( Read more... )

I have been betrayed by the only friend I have within a thousand miles.  My heart is broken.  I have no choice, however, but to sit here and let him break it more and more.  I have really fucked myself this time ( Read more... )

After seven months, I smoked a cigarette today.  How disappointing!  I'm going to try not to smoke another one.  Its just that shit is getting REAL crazy around here.

Fuckin addiction!

Anyone have any suggestions about dealing with a completely out-of-control, hard-headed, defiant 3-year-old?  I'm going to pull out my fucking hair very soon!

I need a day off!

...maybe it isn't for me!

Do those who let life happen, never REALLY making any effort to gain happiness, really deserve to be happy?

How do I know what will make me happy, anyway?  I've never actually been happy.  I don't know if I could be happy!  I don't know if I deserve to be happy.  I guess I'll just take what I can get for now.

Feels like time ( Read more... )

This winter (just before Christmas) my husband and I bought a house.  When we moved in, there was a good foot of snow in the yard already.  In fact we moved in the middle of a snowstorm.  It continued to snow about every other day until we had accumulated way too much snow to continue to measure.  And it snowed all the way until about a week ago.  ( Read more... )

Wow!  It sure has been a long time since I posted anything here.  How much has changed in my life ( Read more... )

so, i haven't updated in a while, huh? hmm...well, here's a couple of pics of my halloween costume...betty boop!


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I could not get out of fucking bed this morning. I could not go to fucking sleep last night. I don't know what has been wrong with me lately. I get these bursts of energy. It feels like I'm on speed. Not a good feeling. I fucking hate speed! I feel like I'm going to come right out of my skin when it happens, which is becoming more often ( Read more... )

I feel very peace ful tonight. I can't put my finger on it, but there's just something right. I am trying not to pick it all apart. It doesn't really matter what's so right I guess ( Read more... )