SilentEnigma_x
i had some motivation left over...

(enjoy my new journal... ive added most of you!) heh!

bye bye to this depressive lump of shit... woo woo!

I really feel like I'm just existing. Not doing anything. Sometimes the days just seem to blur together and I know its all just wasted time. Time I could have been using to do something useful with myself. But how do you do that anyway? When you've never really had any kind of confidence in yourself? When you've never felt good enough. You've ( Read more... )

The last couple of days have been utter hell. My insomnia has reached killer point, and I would rather die than suffer from it anymore. I haven't slept at all since Monday, and I keep going dizzy; not to mention the incredible aches in my stomach as well. Plus, to top it all off, I'm choking on a large mouthful of confusion ( Read more... )

Fuck. I want to put so much more into this journal, I just have no time at the moment. All these jobs and shit left, right, and centre... SJDFKDSJG.

Help me procrastinate! I haven't used AIM for 6 months, and now suddenly it's the sexiest thing ever. Distract me from my goals, baby! F4llingFromGrace

Dammit, I think I'll have to put a lock on my bedroom door. My parents have been storming into my bedroom lots lately (while I'm not home), and, without my permission, playing around with my stuff. This pisses me off, and has led to some very embarrassing confrontations.

For example, my mum takes my digital camera, and starts going through the ( Read more... )

( Read If You Are Mature Enough (15+) )

Yeah I got fucked up last night. It was so fun. Dale threw a going away party for his best bud who is going off to New York for college. So Jamie went and got me a 6 pack of Stella and 3 bottles of vodka. I'm a light weight so after my 3rd Stella, I was buzzed. Everyone at the party was really nice so I let loose and talked to whoever I felt like. ( Read more... )

there was one good part about today, and that was lunch. a few of us all splintered away from our old tables to make our new table, which consists of me, becky, dale, and jack. today, because of the events earlier, we were also joined by luke, james, and lizzi.
~ i haven't laughed so hard in so long. i even laughed so hard i slipped off my chair ( Read more... )

What are the odds that I get fired tomorrow?

Wouldn't that not be respect for the individual?

I mean, we have this really fucking hairy guy working at the til. That's a lot more disturbing than a phone-girl with a tongue & lip piercing. (Photos coming soon!)

Life is weird.That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your ( Read more... )

i cut today. dont ask why. i dont even know why myself. there are so many possibilities why that its too complicated to begin with. maybe because im scared of loosing james. maybe because Garth keeps saying he loves me. maybe because two of my closest friends cut themselves due to boys. i dont know. all i know is that i regret everything. and that ( Read more... )