I feel like no one really knows what it's like to be dying inside, but I know that pretty much everyone at one point or another know what it's like.
Last night I went out with Anthony and we watched Mean Girls and loved it. Hilarious movie. Then we saw Heppy and then Mandi. I had to leave early though ( Read more... )

I'm sitting at my computer crying ( Read more... )

Well it seems that making my journal only able to comment by Registered Users doesnt even help me ( Read more... )

I could not sleep last night. All I could think of were all those hate or bashing comments I got anonymosly (spelling error I'm sure) in my livejournal. I'm deeply considering making my lj FRIENDS ONLY ( Read more... )

Monday at school, no one acted as though I was alive..it's like they all saw me as though I were dead. Only TWO people cared that I was still living--> Elora and Anthony.
That's it. No one else cared. No one else gave a damn.
And I got EXPELLED monday. im on 15 day suspension, then they arent taking me back and thinking about if they can get ( Read more... )

The only stable friends (who I think/know wont abandon me) are Janna, Lewis (janna's boyfriend in england), Sarah Foreman (who moved and isnt coming back), and possibly Elora, if she can even cope with me anymore ( Read more... )

Must not everyone just be so happy?
They would not let me, not for the life in them, let me DIE IN FUCKING PEACE.
They made me stuck here in this world, to rip apart my brain.
All a fucking lie.

They brought me to this school, where I would be alone, to push me to the ground and smuther me into the mudd:
scum of the earthThey brought me to this ( Read more... )

Things went bad between Rob and I again.
He talks to me and says things that make it seem like I'm never going to get better and then he gets angry when I write on my online journals what's wrong with me (disorders) and how i tried to kill myself.
He left to go to the movies with Sarah. Our conversation ended like they always do now--> him ( Read more... )

I have a form of bipolar that needs to be studied to be further diagnosed ( Read more... )

Well..I did what I did ( Read more... )