not feelin well today. to me its still kistmus cuz i havent fallen asleep yet, so lemme say that kistmus sucked. i mean the presents were good and all and i like the presents that i made peepoles, but just too many things go wrong. my family made it xtra clear today that they hate my bf and that they want me to dump him (cept my aunt..shes cool). ( Read more... )

i feel really bad for you sometimes. i was halfway upset bout you tonight, but i was more upset for you. im never disappointed in you

i love you. i love you more than you know. more than you prolly can grasp. all i want is my opinions to be known and respected. but each time i say something i wonder if it was better uncovered. each time i mutter something its like im stabbing myselt.. yeah it hurts, but the more i say the more i bleed. then i wonder if it was worth saying ( Read more... )

well first week of college is over and so far its just seemed like regular high skool as far as the expectations and the criteria are. i got no friends in any of my classes tho, even tho over half of my old skool is here. alot of my classes seem extremely easy and im ahead of the game in most. im enjoyin this no curfew thing and the dorms ( Read more... )

funny how so much can change in sooo little time. everything ive known/believed in has been taken away or dramtically altered. a 5th box car has been added in the hospital parking lot, my bird is now laying eggs, and who knew the best thing of all is that im smiling again. i finally found a decent, honest, gentle guy who i know will finally treat ( Read more... )

All around me are familiar faces ( Read more... )

everything perfect must be lying

each kiss becomes more passionate

mental awareness to read xrays my ass. if you wanted "mental awareness" then maybe you should stop drinking every fucking night and quit fucking yelling at me for the shit that goes on round the house. better yet go look up your child porn on the internet so you can leave me the fuck alone. im old enuf to make my own choices, even aftward i did ( Read more... )

as of now im starting a new life. a new beginning with an old end. an end all to familiar to me. i wont waste my time with someone that treats me as something overrated, someone who is too prideful to see whats really going on. i knew it all along but i didnt care. im bailing on my old self. and i wont wait for those "three little words" ( Read more... )