I have searched for the strength to keep my mouth shut. While that is easier to do in person, I feel as though I need to lay it all out somewhere, so I figured I would do that here. I have already decided this has turned into a place where I come to vent, so why not continue to use it for that for the time being. Who knows, maybe now that I have a ( Read more... )

I feel like I always come here with negative things to say, but I try to  stay positive to those around me, so here we go. I have never struggled so hard with someone to get them to tell me what they want. I have caught him talking to sooooo many girls and going behind my back and sending really rude texts about me that are not true. I have talked ( Read more... )

Well as of September 27 2013 I am Shannah Gray! seems weird, but I haven't officially changed my name or anything, so I still sign wicklund lol. I can't believe our day is over, but nothing really feels different. I went back to school, work and am now dog sitting. Sucky thing about dog sitting is that Sean never really comes to see me, so I have ( Read more... )

Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over. -Gloria Naylor

Do not chase people. Be you and do your own thing and work hard. The right people who belong in your ( Read more... )

Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over. -Gloria Naylor

Do not chase people. Be you and do your own thing and work hard. The right people who belong in your ( Read more... )

Another day of being upset with my recent let go of my friends from work. You'd think I'd feel okay about it, but that's not how these things go. I'm still mad, sad, and upset in general. I don't understand how a month ago one of them could tell me that I am one of the most selfless people they know, yet they come at me like I am selfish all the ( Read more... )

Well I finally did it. I made a move that will hopefully take away all that pain I have posted about the last 2 years. I guess I never understand, when it gets to this point, why it takes me so long to let go of people. Clearly they are not good for me, I feel worthless to them every year, but I never made the decision to leave, until now ( Read more... )

So much has happened since the last time I was on here. For the most part right now I'd like to talk about the search I have been involved in lately for the missing Machesney Park woman. She went missing about 2 weeks ago on Oct 22, 2012. It was a Monday. I haven't stopped thinking about her since Oct 23rd when they reported it for the first time ( Read more... )

It's difficult to find good friends anymore. My friends that work with me have become strictly work friends that don't attempt to have a relationship with me off work grounds. They get upset when work comes up in conversation with me when they aren't at work, yet text me ONLY about work things. I'm not sure I understand. I'm not sure it is worth ( Read more... )

I have never been surrounded by such selfish people in my life. I am miserable, and can't do anything about it. I am trying my best to be good at what I do, and finish a part of school, so I have some accomplishment for all I have worked for, and it is all a joke to most of my friends, including the most important one. I don't know what to do ( Read more... )