Do you want to know what i am? A FAT FUCK. Yeah.

:'( From now on, there are no days that i'll allow myself to binge, not even on something small. No fucking way whatsoever. No.
I can't let myself get any larger than i am right now. It's way too fat already. No more. No.
Mum and Dad pointed out that since i've started college i've gained a lot of ( Read more... )

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
You see, I just wanna believe in me

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY THE FUCK AM I SUCH A FUCKING FAILURE ( Read more... )

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Eeee! I'm so excited =D
I know it sounds lame.. but i've finally figured out a plan for a long fast =D
Starting thursday evening after the tea i've got to have i'm fasting through friday, saturday, sunday, monday and up to tuesday lunch time. In this fast i'm only going to allow water, tea with no milk, and possibly if i desperatley need it, a slice ( Read more... )

Right. It's time to set myself some goals that will actually happen.

By the 5th of September, my birthday: i HAVE to have lost 3lbs and be at 112lbs.
By the 9th of September, college starts: i HAVE to have lost an extra 2lbs, making me 110lbs.
By September the 30th, end of month: i HAVE to be 105lbs.

When i get there, i will re-asses how i look and ( Read more... )

 Everyone thinks my results were brilliant.
I got 4 A*s, 3 A's, 4 B's and a C. 
I'm not proud of them. 
SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME!

:@

What have i done to myself!? Why the f*** did i let myself get this massive, what the hell is wrong with me. It looks as though i didn't care what i was eating on my holiday, but thats so far from the truth. It was a struggle eating every bite over those two weeks because i just knew, i knew that i was going to gain. I'm far far far too scared to ( Read more... )

I've had enough.