So I'm trying to get back in to the employed world ( Read more... )

A forward swoop brings an acrid scent to my nose ( Read more... )

I Can I Will

There is so much time I’ve been wasting
So many days I’ve seen pass to night
The world spins in it’s cycle
But I can’t place it, I can’t see it

Lost on this long journey
Trying to find that taste of life
But nothing seems to be coming
Cause I can’t place it, I can’t see it

Back to where it all started
My thoughts are on another plain
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I had a long conversation tonight, and at the end I was told to write....I don't know what possessed me then, but here you get this madness my friends ( Read more... )

Every touch of my hand across your flesh ( Read more... )

I've been sleeping better lately and it feels good.  It's not enough because I cannot seem to get to bed with all the thoughts running through my mind like marathon runners who don't have a finish line, but it's more than I've had ( Read more... )

I went through three days in a row being the extra wheel.....the second and third time I couldn't even leave.  It's like being in a room full of people and you're still absolutely alone.  I had this brief shot of motivation the last couple of weeks....it's dead now.  I had this thought I could be better...life has a way to ruin these things for me ( Read more... )

Through early morning fog I see ( Read more... )

2:52AM....I walked through the door a little after 2 after a long night of feeling just a little awkward. I've been helping a couple friends move and tonight I joined them and a couple other folk to go out on the town so to speak.  It was okay...but I realize now when we got back I should have just headed home ( Read more... )

I should be right out tired right now but after rereading my last journal entry I'm pretty amazed at how well alcohol can absolutely destroy my emotional state.  I was going to delete that entry, almost angry with myself that I even wrote it.  But now that I'm sitting here I'm going to respond to myself as a friend, reaffirm that the things I said ( Read more... )