Title: Dear Myself
Author: neko-fish
Pairings: Akame, Ryopi
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Kazuya and Jin's relationship has been going downhill when help comes in the strangest way
Prologue//
Chapter 1//
Chapter 2//
Chapter 3//
Chapter 4//
Chapter 5//
Chapter 6//
Chapter 7//
Chapter 8//
Chapter 9//
Chapter 10//
Chapter 11//
Chapter 12 Chapter 13:
Over the next few days, Kazuya took extra notice of the older man, noticing how he always looked a little worried when nighttime, more specifically, bedtime came. If Jin had remembered more things, he didn’t show any signs of it other than the nightmares he’d wake up from.
In Kame’s mind, he too, started to count the days left until the other would supposedly be cured of his head trauma. The mere thought somehow managed to make his chest tighten with apprehension.
They both knew it was inevitable. But that didn’t stop them from desperately trying to prolong it. Jin took extra care to make sure his hugs were extra tight and kisses, extra sweet, and as for Kame, he made sure that their fingers were entwined and every minute they spent together, extra special.
There’s only 2 weeks left…
That was the thought that lingered constantly on both their minds.
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Kame blinked and looked up when a kiss was placed on his head, “Jin?”
The two lying lazily on the couch, firmly attached to one another as they did their nightly routine of watching television. “I’m sorry,” the elder mumbled, “I’m sorry for so many things, I don’t know where to start…”
The younger man sighed and rested his head on the other’s chest, listening to the other’s steady heartbeat, “Me too… when you went to America, I was scared I was never going to see you again, I actually ended up making a list of things I was going to tell you.”
“Why wouldn’t you see me again?”
He gave a small shrug, “I don’t know…you might’ve liked it better over there, found a girlfriend, you know how you’re like, or something or the plane could’ve crashed. The thought of not being able to see your face again scared me.”
“Hm? You wouldn’t believe how many phone numbers I got over there from going on random dates, but if I actually found someone I liked and made her my girlfriend, I’d have to end my career… You know, it makes me really happy to hear you say that,” he shifted a bit and got himself comfortable, “and to think, I used to hate my face.”
“You were such an idiot back then, still are.”
Jin gave a small laugh, “It can’t be helped…let’s sleep on the couch tonight, I don’t want to move.”
“Sure…” Kame muttered tiredly.
It didn’t take the pair very long to fall asleep to the sound of the television.
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When he woke up to the sound of his phone ringing, he found himself barely on the couch, luckily, the older man’s death grip on him had prevented him from falling. He scooted back onto the couch and reached over to grab his phone, “Hello…okay…sure…”
When he looked down, his sleepy gaze was met with an equally groggy stare from Jin who mumbled sleepily in English, “Good morning…”
“Ohayo, they want to go out for dinner then go watch a movie with NEWS after work.”
“Why?”
“Why what?”
“Why today? Why this early? Why NEWS? Why wake us up? Why not tell us at work?”
“Don’t ask me…ask Nakamaru…” he gave a yawn and rolled off the couch, forgetting that the other was attached to his waist, and as a result, they both tumbled to the ground in an awkward heap.
Giving equally pained groans, the pair untangled themselves and went off to change and freshen up. Actually, it was more like Kame crawling out from under Jin and heading off while the other attempted to go back to sleep on the floor.
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When Kame got out of the showers and headed for the kitchen, he could hear Jin singing to “Special Happiness”, he blinked, “Jin?”
The elder turned around from the stove and took his headphones off, “You done?”
“Yea, what were you doing?”
The A gave a childish grin, “harmonizing, just wanted to make sure I could still harmonize with you.”
He shot the other a strange look, “but why?”
“Why what?”
Kame decided to cross his arms and look away, giving a slight pout, “Why why? I’m right here, you don’t have to harmonize to a recording…”
Jin laughed, turned off the stove and placed a kiss on the side of the younger man’s head, “because it’d be embarrassing if I screwed up while harmonizing with you in person and I wouldn’t be able to live it down, I mean after all these years and I screw up without a legitimate excuse, I’d rather not. Anyways, I guess I did it subconsciously.”
He looked over and blinked, “what do you mean?”
“I did this a lot in America, listening to music in my room, singing along, harmonizing, all that. Can’t say I was slacking off now can you?”
Kazuya’s brows furled slightly, arms moving to his hips, “but every time we were on the phone you told me you were just lounging around and doing nothing or that you were getting ready to go on a date with some hot American girl.”
The elder grinned, “I hear jealousy in your voice.”
“Stuff it.”
“You’ve been around Ryo-chan for too long. Besides, can you imagine how weird it’d sound if I said, ‘yea, I’m just practicing the songs because I’m afraid I’m going to forget the lyrics and I’m probably going to forget the dance moves since I don’t have enough room to dance here. Oh, and I’m also practicing harmonizing to your voice because I miss you and I’m getting homesick and it’d sound weird if I tried harmonizing to your voice on the phone.’”
He blinked again, “…wow…”
“Exactly. Did I mention that with the money I had to spend, my dates were barely decent-not the people, those girls were really hot, but I couldn’t really take them out to fancy places or anything.”
His eyebrow twitched slightly as he felt arms wrap around his waist, “Is that so…”
“Yea well, back then we were still just friends and I figured, ‘hey, my future wife could be American’ …But I did see this really pretty postcard and I was going to send it to you saying ‘the prettiest postcard for the prettiest boy’ but I didn’t have my wallet which was empty anyways and none of my friends were around at that time and so I couldn’t.”
“You were that broke?”
“Like I said, I’m used to having money, blew most of it on food and stuff.”
“Whatever. You better get ready, we’re going to be late for work…”
The elder gave a lazy shrug, not moving from his position, “They’ll live, I like you when you’re being jealous.”
“I am not-”
Jin tightened his embrace and whispered into his ear, “Kame-chan’s my number one. Always has been and always will be. I’m sorry it took so long for me to figure out…”
He glanced back to the best of his ability and muttered softly, “Jin…”
“In two weeks I’ll be gone won’t I? The ‘me’ now will be gone…and the ‘me’ before the accident won’t remember any of this.” The younger man didn’t reply, but he could feel him trembling slightly in his hold. “But…if there was one thing, just one thing that I could make sure I remembered after all of this. It’d be that Kamenashi Kazuya is Akanishi Jin’s number one.”
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On their way to practice, Kame refused to untwine their fingers, practically dragging the older man through the crowd. His chest was still fluttering and tossing about all the different feelings that coursed through him at the moment. There was tenderness, affection, love, joy, yet there was also despair and dreading, all of which churned so rapidly in his torso it caused him to feel lightheaded.
I love you…I love you I love you I love you…
The three words he wanted so desperately to blurt out were ironically, the only words he couldn’t say. He watched silently as they danced and practiced, watched as the other pouted when he went off key He was so busy watching, he didn’t noticed the group’s leader walking up to him.
“Kame?”
Snapping out of his daze, he turned to face the other, “Yea?”
“Can we talk?”
He nodded, “Sure,” he was well aware of the curious look they received from Jin as they left the room.
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“What’s wrong?” Kame asked as he peered unsettlingly back at the group.
Ueda placed his hands on the other’s shoulders, “I’m worried about you. You keep watching Jin like someone’s going to come and kidnap him.”
He blinked and looked up ruefully, “Sorry…who could pick Jin up anyways?”
The elder laughed and tucked his hair behind his ear, “That’s true, well…try to relax a bit hm?”
“I’ll try…”
Tatsuya caught the other’s gaze at the door and ruffled his hair before heading back in, “Don’t worry Kame, he’s not going to disappear.”
Kazuya gave a weary smile, “Yea…”
But he is disappearing…and soon…he’ll be gone…
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After dinner, the two bands returned to their workplace, Koki frowned, “Why are we going back to work? It’s pretty late…”
Yamapi shot the rapper one of his killer smiles, “Because we’re watching the movie here, I hope you don’t mind, Koki-kun.”
His smile caused the said rapper to swoon a bit before shaking his head, “Of course not!”
Ryo and Jin looked over at Nakamaru before exchanging knowing looks, the elder of the two laughed, “You thought so too?”
The Osaka man nodded, “It’s like déjà vu with different people…”
“I guess Koki and Yokoyama-kun have a lot in common.”
“Yes…they should get together and fanboy together…”
Jin shook his head and sighed, “Poor Pi and Maru, victims of their fanboy-ing.”
A nod, “Uh huh…”
“This whole bands bonding dinner and movie thing was Pi’s idea, wasn’t it?”
Ryo nodded again, “Uh huh…”
“And let me guess…he told Koki about it.”
“Uh huh…”
“Ah, that explains everything…”
“Uh huh…”
“You two look like you’re having a civilized conversation.”
Jin looked over to see Koyama and Shige right behind them, Ryo on the other hand just kept walking without looking , “Uh huh…” suddenly, he blinked and looked back, “hey…what movie are we watching anyways?”
The other two members shrugged, “No idea.”
The A looked over at his friend who had his arms around Kame and Koki’s shoulders and shouted, “Hey Pi, what’re we watching?”
Yamapi looked up, “I have no idea, Tackey said he left us a movie to watch.”
Everyone’s eyes widened as they stared at the leader of NEWS, “Tackey!?”
The singer didn’t catch the dread in their voices, “Yep! Isn’t he nice?”
Jin pursed his lips, “Pi…there’s a fine line between nice and downright sadistic…”
“Nonsense! Tackey’s very nice!”
No one answered.
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“You left them what movie to watch?”
“You heard me.”
“…Tackey you’re downright sadistic…”
“I love you too.”
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“…this is so unfair, how come Tackey and Tsubasa’s break room’s like three times the size of ours!? And they get a big screen TV, and a nicer couch than us! And they only have two people in their group!”
The peacekeepers immediately sprung into action. Koyama looked over, “Calm down Ryo-chan…”
Nakamaru smiled, “Let’s watch the movie!”
Jin ran over and plopped onto the couch, “dibs.”
Ryo shrugged, “go for it, only god knows what they’ve done on that couch…”
The A’s eyes widened slightly as he scooted off, “…dibs on the floor…”
“The floor’s probably not exactly a safe zone either…”
“Ew…Ryo-chan, stop putting images in my head.”
“I’m only telling the truth.”
And so, the final seating arrangements were, Tegoshi, Massu, Koki and Taguchi and Ueda on the couch while everyone else sat on the floor. Ryo and Kame stuck between Yamapi and Jin’s legs while Shige, Koyama and Nakamaru sat beside each other. They turned off the lights and started the movie.
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Unfortunately for them, the movie that Tackey had left for them was none other than Ju-on. Within the first ten minutes of the movie, the twelve of them were screaming and hugging each other in fear.
“Turn it off Pi! Turn it off!”
“Ah! We’re all going to die!”
“Yamashita-kun!”
“Ow you’re crushing my arm!”
“Jin…I can’t breathe…”
“Oh god I don’t want to die!”
“Turn it off!”
“Yamapi!”
“Leader! Turn it off already!”
“Ohmygodsomeoneturnoffthetv!”
“Why aren’t you turning it off!?”
“Stop the movie Pi!”
“I’m trying! Why isn’t the remote working!?”
“We’re all going to die!”
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“What?”
“You heard me.”
“I can’t believe you took the batteries out of the remote…you know they’ll be too scared to get up to turn it off.”
A laugh, “exactly.”
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Finally, after what appeared to be the longest hour and half of their lives, the movie ended. Rather reluctantly, Shige, who dragged a reluctant Koyama with him, crawled over and turned the lights on.
The A gave a small laugh, “…that wasn’t so bad…”
“Jin…I think I have bruises from your grip…”
“Massu, sleepover tonight! I don’t want to die alone!”
Shige looked over and laughed at how pale Koyama looked while the other retorted with an “I’m not the one who screamed like a girl.”
Taguchi looked over at Ueda who appeared calm but had his arm gripped in one hand and the armrest gripped in the other. “Wow…that’s going to leave a mark.”
There was a slight vibration in Ryo’s pocket, he picked up his phone and held it to his ear. There was a croaking noise on the other line, he closed his phone and turned his head to face Pi, who had his phone to his ear.
Ryo frowned, “Okay, first of all, you’re sitting right behind me, second, you do realize that your name pops up when you call, and third, not funny. I’m going to kill you.”
Yamapi gave a sheepish grin before putting his phone away. “If Ryo-chan kills me, I may get angry and come back and eat you.”
“Then what? You’ll post an entry on how you ate me?”
“Maybe I will, but then I’ll still be hungry and then I’ll end up eating everyone else.”
Nakamaru looked over, explaining rather hesitantly, “Yamashita-kun…she didn’t eat because she was hungry…she ate because she was angry-”
Then the lights turned off. And the screaming began again.
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“A what?”
“How many times are you going to ask me that?”
“But a timer for the lights?”
“Yep, brilliant no? Think of it as an early Halloween for the kiddies.”
“…they’re going to hate you after this.”
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In the dark, someone randomly shouted, “I hate you so much right now Tackey!”
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After much screaming, and being overheard by a janitor who opened the door and switched the lights on cautiously, with a cell phone in his hand, ready to call the police, the twelve stopped. But then resumed screaming for a bit when they saw who it was that they were attached to.
“You’re not Kame-chan! I knew it was weird that he suddenly got so…fleshy…”
“Yamashita-kun!? I thought I was being hugged by a girl!”
“Ryo-chan how did you get up there and why are you hugging-getting hugged by Ueda-kun!?”
“I can’t breathe…oh god, this is worse than those pants I had to wear for the concert…”
Pause.
“Don’t attack him Pi! He knows how to box!”
“So do I!”
“But he’s a do-S!”
“…let go of Ryo-chan! Please!”
“Ow my spleen, you’re crushing my spleen Tegoshi-kun.”
“But Kamenashi-kun, I’m scared!”
“Tanaka-san! Oh thank god…I thought Kei-chan turned bald for a moment…”
“Taguchi-kun, I’m still very scared…”
“Me too.”
“Somebody get me butter! Ueda-kun’s not letting go!”
So while Jin desperately tried to detach Tegoshi from Kame’s waist, and Yamapi was trying to coax a very much terrified Ueda to let go of his boyfriend, the janitor rolled his eyes and pocketed his phone, leaving the room with a “Johnny’s…”
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After they finally got everyone detached and calmed down, they decided to go home. In pairs of course, just incase something wanted to eat them. As they walked home, Jin shot a grin at Kame who was hugging his arm at the moment. Despite him not wanting to admit it, he was terrified.
The younger of the two shot him a suspicious look, “…what are you up to?”
“I’m going to scare Ryo-chan.”
“Why? He’s going to get nightmares already.”
“Because it’s fun,” he whipped up out his cell phone and dialed his friend’s number.
When someone picked up on the other line, before he could utter a word, there was a very threatening “don’t you dare, Akanishi. You do it, and I’m going to personally kill and mangle you so badly, you’ll even scare curses away.”
There was a click, Jin blinked and gave a nervous smile, “…on second thought…let’s call someone less scary…”
“Like…?”
“Not sure yet, let’s do this randomly.” He scrolled down his phonebook without looking and randomly pressed call, when someone picked up on the other side, he whispered “7 days” into it and hung up.
“Jin…that was the wrong movie…”
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Ryo sighed as he picked up his phone yet again, Pi shot him a curious look, “another prank?”
He looked down, “No…it’s Tegoshi,” he flipped open his phone, “hello?”
“Ryo-tan! Help! Sadako just called me using Akanishi-san’s phone!”
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A/N: Hmm..didn't get time to update on the weekend, and my internet's being pretty crap right now. And I have a test tomorrow so I'll leave it at that. I'm predicting...3-5 more chapters before this ends? Much thanks to commenters! Enjoy!