Ha. Here i go again. I'm being bipolar as shit. i hate myself. i cant fucking breathe. i almost messed up last night. now i know im gunna do something stupid. like, why the fuck do i care? just because she's now in love with someone else. I didnt even fucking love her. she didnt "love" me. if she did she wouldnt have hurt me that bad. i threw ( Read more... )

I'm singing as loud as i can so that i dont hurt myself. Iowa. I have never had a way with women, and i've never seen the hills of iowa ( Read more... )

"gone to get pretty for a pretty ladi, be back when the kangaroo is done ( Read more... )

Why am i doing this? I'm wasting my life, and just watching it. I want to get high. So badly. I just want to step back and watch. Just be able to see. I wish she'd really just love me. Oh god. How many times have i posted this shit? I'm done. I really am. Maybe I'll see her tuesday, maybe I won't. I don't even fucking care. I have other friends. ( Read more... )

I'm a douche bag...why does God hate me? I worked my ass off. I didn't get a raise. I almost got attacked by a dog. I tripped up stairs (go figure). Amanda's "goint to get prettied up 4 a special someone be back when im done" lovely ( Read more... )

Awww, so Amanda called me for no reason, well, actually because she was driving alone tonight, which she doesn't like doing, and she wished that I had been there with her, so she called. I was filling out college apps. And what's funny, is okay, before our first date, the topsfield fair, "My Love" was on and my dad had it blaring, so i always ( Read more... )

Wow. I'm a douche bag. It's 12:19, and I haven't done any homework. I ( Read more... )

I Love youuuu. i had sumfin tha drun k n tiff was too ( Read more... )

God, a second post in the same day. Ugh. Why do things hurt? Why was I looking forward to tomorrow night, when she can't even come. I'm an idiot. I knew I'd get too attached. I can't go to NAGLY anymore. I can't because I'll never get over any of it. Or maybe I should and just suck it up. I won't be a douche bag. She IMed me for once tonight. Then ( Read more... )

I hate having so much shit to do. I hate college. I'm pissed i can't go to the club tomorrow night with everyone after nagly. I'm pissed that my sister's a total douche bag and throws my shit around because she's upset about something that has nothing to do with me ( Read more... )