Some bugs just won't die no matter how hard you step on them. There... that's a good representation I think. Ryan, it'll be sooner than you think, so pack up your stuff. It just seems like all my life is, these days anyway, are irritation, anger (hatred even), and disappointment. Nothing seems fun anymore, and I don't like not being able to speak ( Read more... )

So, I've finally decided to update after so long of a time. A lot has changed me over the summer, making me stronger and weaker, better-off and down in the slums. I've moved out of my house for good now, and I'm living with the best people... well, most are good anyway. It's nearing 3 AM and I, like many summer nights before, cannot sleep. Oh well ( Read more... )

You're not just hurting yourself when you do it.

So... I'm extremely tired, but I can't sleep. School's winding down, and I'm afraid what the summer might bring. I think I'll be ok, but I worried about my friends and my rooming/school situation for next year. I don't know if I can afford GVSU, and if I can't, I might have to stay home. If that happens, who knows what will become of me. I just ( Read more... )

You know what the one thing that college has taught me? That I'm not good enough to do/be what I want.

So, I've been thinking a lot about the future, and I'm not really sure what to think. Sometimes I feel like I'm being forced into a world that I'm not ready for, and it truly frightens me. I just wish that I had more time to sort things out for myself. One thing I do know for sure, is that I have the greatest of all friends there to support me. I ( Read more... )

So, this weekend should be fun. Friday night I get to spend time with my friends and Sarah, and then it's up around 10ish to take George, Jordan, and Sarah to Bridgman for a fun-filled day. There really isn't a whole lot to do in Bridgman... come to think of it, there's absolutely nothing to do. So why am I taking people there for nothing to do? I' ( Read more... )

I wish that I could start my life now... I mean, my parents are making that option easier, but it would be nice if I could just start living. I want to do what I want to do, and I think that I could if I really tried, but there is always that uncertainty. College will help me with everything, but I'm not sure if it's necessary anymore. I have most ( Read more... )

It finally all hit me today... or last night, however you want to think about it. I will never feel alone again in my life, and I was assured this. Sarah was having a rough night, and for some dumb reason I thought it was because of something that I did. Neither of us has had something this good last for long time, and we we're both scared. We've ( Read more... )

So... I keep wondering what I've done, what I've changed... why I've been given this gift. I really thought that my life was going further in a downward spiral, that it couldn't get any worse. Then in a day, in one single moment, agony turned to bliss, and everything reversed itself. I'm so happy, I live in a world that knows no pain, and I can't ( Read more... )