This past week has probably been the single most amazing one of my entire life. It started with a trip to Muskegon on Saturday, and that night ended with Fight Club and an all-night talk. Then I finally have the girl I dream of fall for me. She is the best thing to happen to me since I've come here this August. I just can't believe that something ( Read more... )

Looking back upon everything that has happened since Saturday, I don't think I would change a single thing. I am happier than words can describe. I have found everything that I've been looking for my entire life, and I'm actually shivering. I'm so scared that something is going to happen. Good things never stick with me for very long. I have the ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I wish I could cry. I wish I still had the ability to, and I wish that for once, there was an easy decision in front of me. I can't change other people, so do I have to sacrifice part of myself in order to keep my friends? This can't be happening... nobody could be that self-less, and at the same time, some of my friends can't be this ( Read more... )

What will tomorrow bring? What can I do? Finally, after much dismay, Eric starts to enjoy his time at Grand Valley. Yesterday was probably my best day up here, and my night was even better. I'm so happy... and not a moment too soon, lol.

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This isn't healthy. I keep letting things that really bother me slide without any sort of notice. Then I realize how much these things bother me, and I don't know why, but I have no outlet. I keep bottling them up, and pretty soon, I'm going to explode... I can feel it. The latest to these bothersome things is now I don't know if I'll be coming ( Read more... )

Why can't I escape from this dream? Or is this just supposed to be my reality? Seeing her face everytime I shut my eyes, hearing her voice when I'm all alone. Secret Garden crystalized everything... I really shouldn't have gone to see it.

I'm on the verge of breaking down kids, and when it happens, it won't be a pretty sight.

I think this morning for breakfast I'll have some confusion with massive amounts of paranoia. Secret Garden hit me hard, and it's a little too close to home, but that was nothing compared to the reoccurring nightmare that I've been having. Arrr!

Purrrr.... ;)

I like the days where the night before, I realize that my class in the morning has been cancelled. However, I don't like sleeping in to have nightmares that make me wake with cold sweat and tears running down my face...

I miss her....

As I walk along the sidewalk, I notice how deserted Grand Valley is. I'm alone. All alone. I shudder as the icy wind cuts at my face. I finally look up as I get to the bridge to see my love, standing on the rail, facing the ravine. My heart beats harder than I thought it could, and she must have heard it, because she turned to see me. A single tear ( Read more... )