I'm halfway to the floor before I wake up and realize that I'm thrashing in my sleep. I can't remember what I was dreaming about, but I know it wasn't a fun dream. Groaning as last night's events come rushing back, I roll out of bed and make a dash for the bathroom, where I stand under the hot water for what seems like hours, shaking ( Read more... )

It's only like a little past ten but I've already gone to bed. Or, you know, 'bed'. I can't stand being down there anymore. Willow and I set up the couch for Giles and then I just got out of there. It's not awkward, just... sad. I can't stand looking at Giles when he's like that. It's awful ( Read more... )

I turn the door knob right after unlocking the bolted door. I let Giles walk in first, and shiver a little at the total silence. The whole way home had consisted of small talk, which wasn't too fun, but at least it was something. I have know idea what could be going through Giles's mind now, and I don't like what I am thinking it could be ( Read more... )

I swear, sometimes I wish I was more interested in exacting vengeance for adults. At least they know how to speak. That last spell would have been much less messy if the little girl hadn't had such an awful lisp. I mean, honestly, is it my fault that it sounded like "death" instead of "deaf"? Oh well, cleaning up the mess isn't part of the job. I ( Read more... )

I feel like the most useless person in the world. I've run away from my friends at one of the hardest times of their lives, left my girlfriend just when she needs the most support, and shut myself off from most human contact in some sort of effort to "find myself." This past day or so has shown me just how broken everyone I love has become, and ( Read more... )

I adore trains, making little tinker noises that beat like a pulse. Clink. Clink. Clink. Made by morsels, technology. Humans make divineness out of madness. Trains. Chips. Trains. Mummy took me on a train ride once. We went to see the circus. I dreamt about it, about men falling off ropes and cracking skulls. We never went to the circus again ( Read more... )

I walk from the Magic Box with my little carton containing the Orb tucked under my arm. It was interesting to interact with the Slayer's posse, and I'm glad I got at least half of the magic items I need. I doubt that they will contact me with concerns to the Codex, I sense the Watcher didn't want to give it to me ( Read more... )

Turning away from everyone, I run my fingertips over the spellbooks on the shelves surrounding our usual working area. I notice that Spike is gone. Whatever. First he flirts with Faith, then he abandons me us. Well, good riddance to him too ( Read more... )

I notice with the new asshole hanging around, the issue of Buffy got conveniently side stepped. They'd been dancing around it all day, as if it was something that could be avoided. Well it wasn't like she was going to sit up and say anything, now was it? I'd noticed because it's my curse to notice shit like that, to know people better than they ( Read more... )

Oh, great. Now we find out that there's a band of nerds out there trying to kill us. Well, we kinda knew that. But still. And to hear it from the brother of one of those nerds... that's just plain weird ( Read more... )