i'm a roller coaster of emotions.

 i have to constantly remind myself
to just breath.

I know.

 ... 5, 4, 3, 2, 1....

=[

here it comes...
&i'm at work.

 I'm about ready to break at any minute now.
I'm just waiting.
everythings been moving so fast yet it seems like nothings happening.

I'll never win this so called game.
it's going to hit. and it's going to hit hard.
I'm back to the feeling of my heart sinking lower and lower everyday.
I refuse to give up. I said that in the beginning.
and it'll stick to ( Read more... )

 HEY, I'm super happy!

even if I don't have it the way I want.
right now I couldn't ask for anything more.
but I wouldn't settle for anything less.
<3

i'm also hungry. 
I don't eat much anymore.

 i have to pee... really bad.

stooooop.

 wowzers. =]

siehara and I are becoming really close friends. I like it.
today she ranted on about how she liked being friends with me because her and I are just friends and we aren't trying to get with eachother and that it's nice to a friend like that. she was drunk but i knew she meant it. and I feel the same. it feels like everyone I become ( Read more... )

 hold my hand lets chase the sun.

i need to meet new people.

i most def have a head ache today.
meaning;
yesterday was a good ass day! =]

haha. chanel and I will get that.
we "made" $32 or so.
we're hookers.
but for real.

yesterday was a whole lot of fun.
I wish I had days like that more often.
lately it just seems like things are slipping away.
it was good to know I still have something going for me.
i love friends ( Read more... )

 I need answers.
I have so many questions, thoughts, and feelings.
and no answers.

=/

i was doing soo good not thinking about things.
I hate feelings.