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The View From a Crow's Nest
I have a to-do list in my mind, because people are all the same shade of gray and I'm sick of having to wear rose-colored glasses to fool myself into believing differently.
This is the way the world ends,
Not with a bang, but a whimper.
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Like a Fig Tree
Kevin called me.
Sabrina left bruises.
They put in insane amounts of effort.
I didn't make time for him.
I miss the past, but I have no idea who I am anymore. And we will always be the same, no matter how hard we try to change.
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Only I Can Hear The Chords
For a long time I have been searching for something and I was taken aback when I finally stumbled upon some minute fraction of it, because I then realized that what I found was an object of complete intangibility.
I should be ecstatic about qualifying for NFL debate nationals in the Senate yesterday, but I am not. I should be thrilled about getting ( Read more... ) -
They Won't Mean A Thing
I'm going to spend my next six months
Hating my last six months
Instead of savoring them like I should.
Home should feel like a haven,
Not a prison cell.
I'm going to spend my next six months
Knowing that it's only going to be a change of scenery
Not a change of feeling;
Wanting to love the hours
When you're making me hate the minutes.
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Wrap Me Up; Unfold Me
I am crying, I am sobbing, I am the walking dead. I hate school, I hate my grandparents, I hate my past, and my present, and my future. I want it to pour. I want it to bring the lightning and I want to get hit, and ignite. I want to love. I want to love so much that it's infectious. I want to feel you in my steps, in my smile, in the beads of water ( Read more... ) -
Infinite Playlists
I started crying at school today. I started crying at work today. I started crying at home today.
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I Never Felt So Close; I Never Felt So All Alone
You've put me between a rock and a hard place, and I'm starting to panic.
A wild animal can't be blamed for its actions while in a state of extreme distress.
Also, I am really, really, really starting to miss D, even though I know that this was the right thing to do for everyone. I guess he just made me happy, and that's a pretty hard accomplishment ( Read more... ) -
It's Short Just Like Your Temper, Somewhat Golden Like The Afternoons We Used To Spend
All I see are dark gray clouds
In the distance moving closer with every hour.
So, when you'd ask, "Is something wrong?"
I'd think "You're damn right there is, but we can't talk about it now.
No, we can't talk about it now."
So, one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more.
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Good Advice Is Rare, So Treasure It
Dad, I love it when you call me DelRay.
You should be with the guy who lets you be you- all the time. Not some of the time. ALL OF THE TIME. Be with the guy who can bring out the best of every part of you. Sometimes it's not going to be perfect, because it's usually never perfect, so don't ever give up just because someone isn't your "soulmate". Don ( Read more... ) -
We Never Used To Get Anything Done
I want bones like iron, blood like mercury, so I can tell you when I'm rising and when I'm sinking in.
I think I could spend eternity in that car, traveling a little over the speed limit, sitting somewhere between David and Sean, Dispatch blasting so loud that you can feel it in your soul, with both the boys singing their hearts out.
I think I could ( Read more... )