A blinking cursor on a blank page. I am weeks behind in my grad school applications, and beginning to enter panic mode. I know exactly what I want, but am at a loss for words as to how to convey these thoughts in a compelling story. Who am I? How have I been shaped? Where do I want to go? What makes me stand out from the rest? Simple questions with ( Read more... )

a realistic conversation about grad school, via facebook status updates ( Read more... )

i hate today. (whine whine ( Read more... )

dear october ( Read more... )

"To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting."

just found out ee cummings is buried in the cemetery a few blocks away. and that they had a tribute reading/twilight tour last week. oh, timing.

on the edge and trying not to look down. had a particularly difficult day in a particularly difficult week, of a particularly difficult month... and well you get the point. financially broke (goldfish + almost beer for dinner), after a few month of unnecessary money pits ($350 car got towed for street cleaning, and then car broke, and then towed ( Read more... )

Had a meeting with the boss today to go over my annual review. Basically, I'm already at the ceiling and he'd like to see me grow. "What are your plans for the future?" he said. "Well, I plan on applying to optometry school in the fall." I replied. He chuckled and said, "Well, optometrists die old, fat, and happy..., but there is a lot of routine ( Read more... )

my ballet/pilates class is so challenging! but its in a breezy attic in an old church and there are bird sounds, and a warm green feeling, and while i'm there, things (life? balancing myself on my toes for he for a count of 8?) feel overwhelming, but possible. one of my favorite songs (uh new pornographers the bleeding heart show, borderline lame, ( Read more... )

i don't really believe that dreams have any real meaning. perhaps its the brain/cognitive scientist in me, or perhaps it's that if i did believe they meant something, it might be too overwhelming. i've had a few really intense dreams that have stuck with me forever ( Read more... )

Haven't updated in a while. Things have been crazy, but I think I've finally reached a point in the processing to begin to write it all down. To do that, I bought a nice journal and so most of my journal efforts will be diverted to that for the time being. But! I just made a silly list of things that make me really happy, so I thought I'd post it ( Read more... )