Hello LJ. I got lost tonight in nostalgia and wound up here... looking at Mary's old live journal a bit... thinking back to all my memories. Life is so different. It's hard to remember life before my kids honestly. Yep, I have two kids... a boy who's 5 and a girl who is 2. They are the sweetest things and I love being a mom... BUT.. our world ( Read more... )

I've been having dreams over the past week or so of me being single again... dreams where I'm in situations like I'm living with roommates and or I'm in my early 20's and crushing on someone. Don't get me wrong.. I love being married and a mom... but these dreams are also coming with that feeling ... that feeling of uncertainty and excitement. ( Read more... )

I had been to my friend's apartment a few times previous to this but this night I was going to be meeting some of her friends and hanging out, and if they were anything like her I knew I was in for an interesting night. I walked up the stairs and into her small one bedroom to find her place filled with a variety of eclectic people. I'd say there ( Read more... )

More often than not I think I'm unhappy. Is that weird though.. to say I "think" I'm unhappy? I mean, I'm a stay at home mom so my days are filled with cartoons, changing diapers, feeding the baby, playing with him... and that stuff is fun most of the time... but when it comes down to me.. who I am as a person.. I'm really unfulfilled. I have ( Read more... )

How the hell did we get here? Wasn't it yesterday that it was barely 2003? So I just put the baby back to sleep and I'm up alone on the couch .. it's 11:27 pm and what is on the tv? Of course it's Coldplay on Austin City Limits. ha. Coldplay is like the music of my .. well, not youth.. but my 20's I guess you'd say. Yeah, I like Coldplay and I ( Read more... )

years even.. like two since I last posted but more than that since I really kept this thing up to date with my daily thoughts and feelings. I think I might start coming here again more often though.. just to let out those private things that need out.. purge everything out of those dark and dusty corners that have been overlooked for so long. I'm ( Read more... )

9 years later and I'm still dreaming about you. We used to use words like "magnetic" to describe us and now there are just traces of your ghost haunting me. Will I ever stop thinking about you? I'm not living in the past, the past is living with me.

French music makes me feel sexy. French music and rainy days.. they go well together don't they? with some coffee, or in this case, tea ( Read more... )

I remember now what I wanted to discuss ( Read more... )

what is that saying? hindsight is 20/20 ( Read more... )