i didn't lose the weight i planned to. Why? Because i'm fat, and disgusting, and ugly, and a failure. i have never wanted anything so desperately in my life than to be thin - really thin. i want to lose 21 pounds, bring myself down to 80 - i think that might make me happy. i hate food with a passion, and i don't want to look at it, or smell it ( Read more... )

what did i just do...? i just cut myself... on purpose... for the first time in three years. what now?

i got my grade report today - it was worse (much worse) than i anticipated. Things just suck - what more can i say? i'm just so sick of everything. i know i need to make a doctor's appointment and talk to my doctor about getting some medicine for depression and social anxiety - but... what the fuck am i supposed to say? My mother is getting all ( Read more... )

so i've come to the conclusion that i still hate myself. i gained ten pounds from last semester because i let people who "care" about me get the better of me. Well, i'm sick of this shit. i'm sick of being fat. so, what have i chosen to do? what i did before, what i know how to do, what i need to do. i'm going on a severe diet, and welcoming ( Read more... )

So tonight was prom night for west canada valley. You see, my best friend was supposed to call me so i could come and take pictures of her and her boyfriend for all that pre-prom bullshit, so i waited for her to call. And i waited...and waited...and waited... and she never called. i'm sick of hiding how i feel so here it goes, and with any luck ( Read more... )

Finals start tomorrow. Math 100 is the first sentence for torture, and i have that tomorrow at 1pm. Luckily, i only have one final a day until the 12th, and that's it. In truth, this semester was bad; i had so much shit going on in my life outside of college that i fucked up big time in college. i'm actually worried about failing. Part of that ( Read more... )

i feel ill ( Read more... )

define rape. please. it's a need to know thing (and erin, i'm not being a sarcastic bitch, i swear to god; i just want to know the exact definition). i had a discussion with my best friend in this entire world today, and i think i may vomit thinking that what she said may have been true.

please. someone? a definition?

thanks.

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i hate life.