I thought I would leave a quick update just so that everyone would know that I am not crazy all the time.  Right now I am quite sane -- given the circumstances...

Guess who's back.
Back again.
Yeah, he's back.
Tell a friend.

It's Josh.  I'm about to lose my mind, but I'll try to keep my cool.
I'm trying to love myself right now.  That way I won't need ( Read more... )

Here I go -- spilling my guts yet again. I am a person (if I even deserve to be called so much as a person) who people will only befriend when it fits their schedule. So I must confide in this computer and all of you who are not reading this right now. This keyboard is my best friend, my confidante, and the best listener I will encounter because ( Read more... )

Oh boy. I am losing it. I have lost it. There is no composure here. None ( Read more... )

So, I am back.

And, as usual, I have changed from my last LiveJournal appearance.

Here is a photograph of the best time you had, windows smudged by the speed.


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Okay, I am a little late with this, but I do want to kind of recap 2004.  Maybe then I will be able to get some closure and realize it is over (and also that it began).  As usual, I am still stuck in 1998, so everything after the Spice Girls is a blur.  I will do my best to pretend that there is some meaning in the measurement of a year, although ( Read more... )

So, Christmas. Yeah, BIG WHOOP! (god, I haven't said that in like, forever.)
I am all-too spiffed out about the Nirvana box set. I actually am happy right now. It feels pretty damn good. Who would have known. I also got Snow White by Donald Barthelme. Double score! Well, I am off to the neighbor to eat a oh-so (hopefully) yummy Christmas dinner ( Read more... )

I think I'm okay now. Really. Nope, maybe not.  Oh well.  I am too stressed to delve into this madness.  Well, the phone just rang and I bought a new top today, which must translate into "phone+top=movies tonight."  I better fix my make-up?

'night.

( a long-awaited quiz that no-one wants to read. --stolen from so many others, kthanks. )

Today I have finally recognized the most tragic death of all. I do not know if I will ever recover. For certain, I will never be the same. I hope someday this tear will pass and I will be able to wipe them away. I did not want to lose this hope.
So it should not go.

Hale the hypocrit! Here she is in flesh and blood, but mostly scar tissue. Don't touch that you might hurt her feelings, like she matters. Goddamn her. Let her die. Let her be a sacrifice. Make something of yourself to spite her ( Read more... )

Love is disappointing. I am incredibly hurt. I haven't cried this hard in a few months ( Read more... )