well...im updating...yay me...I have a job, I work at Target, exciting right? Its actually not that bad. I actually like it. I have a cell phone, for those of you who didnt know, my number is 7346246173...so call me ok? I wanna know how all my friends are doing and I want everyone to know that I am still alive and that I'm functioning, though, ( Read more... )

hey guys i have a new sn and cell phone number, if you want to get a hold of me, you can call anytime, the number is 73462461763. and my new sn is babydoll82401. :) get a hold of me somehow.

So, today is mothers day. And it has been one hell of a day. We went to visit my mom today, me my sister and my stepdad. It was so hard. I couldnt help but cry. I miss my mom so much. It gets harder and harder every day just to go on. I dont think theres a day that goes by that I dont think about her. I love her and miss her. Sooo very much...But I ( Read more... )

I miss my mom. I wish there was something else I could say. But there isn't. I miss her so much everyday and it really sucks. I just want to pick up the phone and call her, but I can't. I still call her cell phone voice mail to hear her voice. What am I going to do now? I love my mom so much and now she's gone. I just want her back, but I know I ( Read more... )

Well, six days ago, my mom passed away. On my birthday...Yeah, my mom...everything I've ever had in my life..I just lost her. Yesterday was her funeral. It was the hardest day I've ever had to go through. I dont know what else to do anymore. I have nothing else in this whole world. If you need to get a hold of me, I'm no longer living at home. If ( Read more... )

Me and eric got into a huge fight today. and its weird, because today was the first time that i actually felt like it was over between me and him. I love that boy so damn much, it drives me crazy. I never thought I would love anyone this much. I never thought I would want to be with someone as much as I want to be with him. I love him more than ( Read more... )

I look at myself right now, and I realize im not the person I wanted to be 3 years ago. I'm going to be 19 years old in 3 weeks, and Im still not a highschool graduate. I wanted to be in college right now, I wanted to be attempting my writing career right now. But instead, I'm not even done with highschool. I feel like such a failure, and I feel ( Read more... )

This is one of the hardest things I'm ever going to say. My grandma died at 7:10 am on Sunday January 23rd. And...I just feel like breaking..so i'm sorry if I dont update for a while...and I'm sorry if I'm not myself for a while..just please try to understand...ive lost half my heart...

I LOVE ERIC DAVID DANKO!!!!!! I LOVE HIM, I LOVE HIM, I LOVE HIM....You dont even know how much I love him..hes amazing in every way..and I love him sooooo much. <333333333333 He makes me soooooo happy. <333333 I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!! Haha..I really do love him...didnt know that, did you?

Well...everything is just falling apart. I know i've said that before. And I feel like this time..I mean it. My grandma just signed all the papers to not give her life support or to recesitate her. And they are sending my mom home so she can die in the comfort of her home. And I've never been this so out of control. I feel like I've lost everything ( Read more... )