I'm finding out that I hate my major and how I really need it if I want better jobs. I need to graduate but I need money right now so I won't be a burden. So I'm trying to do both. Really, I am so tired of my dissertation that I haven't work on it in 3 months. I'm just going through the motions with it and I would quit but it's too late now. So I'm ( Read more... )

I have low tolerance for spicy foods, but that never stops my family from cooking it. I guess I'm either not supposed to eat or cook something else. So tonight I'm just gonna be hungry I guess. Le sigh.

My day was hell on wheels. I went into a BS interview & the position just wasn't what I expected. The only reason I'm considering it is because I'm old (in the corporate sense) & at this point anything seems better than nothing. How sad is that? To be so educated & accept a job with horrible pay and hours because you're over, but under qualified.

I ( Read more... )

So yesterday...I watching the trash guy remove the boxes from our garage and he wanted some water. I go inside. Now the garage door is so weird. You open it and it quickly closes behind you. I didn't want it to slam so I went to grab it. And my fucking middle finger gets slammed in the door!
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This is the entry where I talk about Tré & then he gets to disappear into the void because it's time. It's been time, but everyday a stupid thought spiral will hit & I'll be all "I wonder if he thinks about me" or "I wonder what he'd say if I told him..." So no more worrying about this guy after this. I'm gonna purge him out if it kills me ( Read more... )

I should have prepared for this. How many journal entries & diaries have I filled with words of independence? Well now I get to prove it. My mom insists on telling me that this is not kicking me out, it's setting me free to soar. Well with no job and a heap of educational loans....not to mention I'm spared to be finishing up my PhD...this sure ( Read more... )

The really short story is that my boyfriend and I got into an argument about my sis. It was this whole thing with my sis and her friend, Nick. It literally had nothing to do with us, but it tells me a lot about our relationship. I'm always gonna be protective of my sis so when someone's being a dick to her I'm going to go into protective sister ( Read more... )

I think I'm crazy jealous. Another group of my friends are getting married and having babies. I'm just doing school and filing or job applications. I feel like I started my life all late, but maybe this timeline works for me? I don't know. I never thought I'd want that though. I saw the disaster that was my stepdad and mom's marriage. I've babysat ( Read more... )

Let's start with the job hunting. So I applied for this marketing job and I thought it aligned with my major. They used all the right words on their website. Looking for dedicated individuals that want to foster a positive working environment. Offers training and one on one consulting as well as a fast pace upward mobility. Then during the ( Read more... )

I thought I was helping by focusing on school and doing chores. I thought I was helping by working with my sis on her homework and driving her around when the parents couldn't. I really thought I was helping by staying here and continously graduating with these degrees and managing home life while everyone else worked. I cooked and cleaned. I ( Read more... )