When I get mad and I get pissed, I grab a pen and I write out a list...

[paraffin_chic]

Comments

[xpankme]

I envy your self control. If we had cheesecakes at home I would eat even the packaging lol

I think making lists it's cool. It's good to sit down and think what you have to do.

[paraffin_chic]

It's not really self control - it's my mind/ED controlling me. If it says I can't eat that then I won't, but sometimes it tells me to eat everything everywhere and that's what I do. I was actually caught licking cheesecake off the plastic they put around the individual slices once, by a ticket inspector on a train. That was slightly embarrassing :D

I did a post about it ages ago on pan but lots of eating disordered people are also list makers. It's a control thing, I think. I have lists to organise all my lists.

[hostage_of_hope]

all that food sounds good.

[misshelenc]

This has got to be the saddest thing I've read all week. Please get better soon honey, I am so worried about you xxx

[paraffin_chic]

Fucking hell, I wasn't trying to make people sad! Sorry hun, last thing you need is me depressing you innit.

I'm actually doing ok - a couple of times this week I put everything into mfp and decided that I needed MORE calories. In the past I would've been happy to have a low-cal day, but now I'm focussing more on how much protein I eat and getting enough food to keep going to the gym. I just find writing lists calms me down when I'm worried or feeling overwhelmed about things, but it's not really something anyone else needed to see so sorry.

I hope you're doing ok today. Your letter is mostly done so I'll try and get in in the post for tomorrow x