people need to grow up, realize that highschool, and highschool life, is just one big fucking joke. we all grow up and forget all about it. so get over it. AGAIN.

new motto of mine, going out to the whole world, everyone with their issues everywhere:
get the fuck over it. lol, popped it my head, sorry.

i don't know how many people who read this will already have known, but there are some things i need to talk about. over the end of the school year and till about 2 weeks ago, i was getting into heavy drugs. mainly cocaine. i did coke for about 2 months everyday. coke is just a whole lot of fun. i'll be honest. but if i know you, and i find ( Read more... )

hey all. lifes kinda different nowadays. i like it though. theres not the stess that i had with lots of past things. heh. my girlfriend is awesome, names rachel. shes really laid back, and i love her. thats pretty much my life. simple, nowadays. gonna be a telemarketer. so yea. later all.

jillian. i never stopped caring about you, you have to know that somewhere inside. but i just couldnt take my life apart. not again. im sorry, truly i am, i have regrets, but i couldn't handle it again, and had i moved, you would have lost me anyway. i hope you can find it in you to forgive me and possibly be friends again. though i know that ( Read more... )

im back, and not only am i mad, im depressed and happy too..... long story. for those of you who don't know, in about the middle of the summer im moving to carol county maryland, about an hour from annandale, meaning the possibility of every weekend visits and vacations. also for those of you that don't know, i have epilepsy. i had a massive ( Read more... )

you know, i'm really tired of people and their melodrama. i'm tired of the teenage world, really. so many of you people, even ones i have come to care about, are so full of SHIT. we're in our fucking teens. live your life and get over your trivial issues. you know what a REAL issue is, at least for a teenager? try getting kicked out of both ( Read more... )

i cried in PUBLIC. i haven't cried in public since i don't know when. last time i cried at all was around christmas, or a little before. at the diner. had to go to the fucking bathroom. whats wrong with me? someone, please help. anybody. fix me.

if i ever kill myself, i'm going to perform what i THINK is called haru kari. it's the samurai death of lost honor, i suppose you could call it. most painful possible way to die. fits. seriously.

all i ever seem to do is hurt people. and worst of all, i'm feeling self-pity. i mean, im feeling alot of self hate as well, but i still deserve pity from no one, least of all my self. i fuck things up due to my selfish ass nature, and can't seem to do anything right. i've hurt the one person who means more to me than anyone else ever has AGAIN ( Read more... )