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To Shawna
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Darkness envelopes everything, even where there is light, I only see a twilight a montage of how things could be somewhere, someplace happier and the darkness that fills my life. Each day I wake up is just slowly usurped by oblivion, draining color and life from me. And you, my siblings in this, I know that you feel the same thing. I know you ( Read more... ) -
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What the hell is going on? It's like my journal just disappeared. I guess it doesn't matter because I've had this journal for a while and the history just trials off into obscurity anyhow. Lots of things seem like they matter little now. There's a part of me that wonders why I keep going but a hidden part deep inside that knows"If we fall and ( Read more... ) -
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I was foolish to think that I could rise above it all like some sort of angelic being whose feet never touch the soil. I fell into this crevice again and my hands and feet are muddy just as yours are. And right now, I can't tell whether I am clamouring out or not. I can't tell if the things I do are a ritual to my demise or if I am desperately ( Read more... ) -
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I went to philosophy class. I think I'm really getting into this philosophy stuff. Very interesting. I think it helps that the professor is a bit entertaining. I've only had one, maybe two boring professors here at Uni and they were bad at teaching in general. I just sometimes can't get over how many people go there or how many beautiful women ( Read more... ) -
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I read my previous journal entry. I'm well aware that I made it public, but everything about my past is a part of me and I'm a part of everything that I have come in contact with in my life. I am a part of all who I have met and it's not something to try to make allowances for or excuses or hide who I am. I will not have skeletons in my closet ( Read more... ) -
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Yesterday, I was supposed to go to a friend's funeral. A friend of mine who passed away this last week. I hadn't spoken to him in a while, but not because of bad terms just a combination of things that probably made us feel that it wasn't appropriate for us to talk to one-another. I wrote something in my facebook about it. I guess I scatter my ( Read more... ) -
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Well, I've moved into the dorms and while I should be happy and excited, I sit here, increasingly depressed. I went to the pool and dipped my legs in, then I frowned and thought, "what's the point?" I tried to play this game I had taken interest in recently, a game called "Second Life" but I just don't have any motivation to do so. Depression ( Read more... ) -
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Things have become dark as of late and they're getting darker. I try to fight the feeling which has emerged quickly since yesterday but there are too many omens, too much death. Some people close to two of my co-workers have died yesterday and then I came home to find my cat, who was attacked by dogs the previous night, had died of no visible ( Read more... ) -
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I always come to this cul-de-sac and I keep turning back. I'm afraid of burning bridges because I always want this safety net to fall back on. I walk a bit and then I come back from said walk. I'm not just talking about literally but also metaphorically in every walk of my life. If I'm to find what I'm searching for, I must learn to start venturing ( Read more... )